SeekingAfrica
Diamond Member
Hey guys,
So I've been doing really well for weeks, even spend some time facing some triggers...Anyway, this morning I woke in panic, holding on to the side of the bed like my life depended on it. As I fully awoke few things about my week triggered me and I've been crying in panic for a while.
Here is the problem:
1. I work for myself. Usually I have pretty set deadlines but this week is a bit more flexible
2. I usually make the schedule the weekend before the week but last night I was too tired...
And so now I'm in the panic state still.
I wrote down what I panicked about and tried to calm myself with facts that none of it will happen today, and at worst, I have a day(and still it's probably useless worry) and at best - a whole week to deal with it...I wrote down the 3 main worries I have and calmly took a step towards more knowledge so I worry less...
BUT I am still panicky, calmer, but still frozen enough that my mind is blank. And I don't know how to start my day. It's all a rumble in my head, saying- calm down first! No, do 1 thing, anything- no, this part of work, this call, this file. I'm panicky and so it's all evened out. And now I don't know whether to try to calm myself, or try to make some to do list in this state.
I'm sorry if this is a lot of venting, I haven't gotten like this in a while, and I still haven't quite learned how to handle it better.
I think I may journal after breakfast, try to put some order in all this, and then jump into work...But if anyone has any useful coping tips of how they order their work tasks(especially if you have a desk job, with lots of small tasks through the day) etc. when in higher anxiety state that will be appreciated. I don't know how much I can apply in this state right now, but I should start working on it otherwise so I'm more able to cope otherwise. (though I do have to admit writing this black on white is helping a bit)
So I've been doing really well for weeks, even spend some time facing some triggers...Anyway, this morning I woke in panic, holding on to the side of the bed like my life depended on it. As I fully awoke few things about my week triggered me and I've been crying in panic for a while.
Here is the problem:
1. I work for myself. Usually I have pretty set deadlines but this week is a bit more flexible
2. I usually make the schedule the weekend before the week but last night I was too tired...
And so now I'm in the panic state still.
I wrote down what I panicked about and tried to calm myself with facts that none of it will happen today, and at worst, I have a day(and still it's probably useless worry) and at best - a whole week to deal with it...I wrote down the 3 main worries I have and calmly took a step towards more knowledge so I worry less...
BUT I am still panicky, calmer, but still frozen enough that my mind is blank. And I don't know how to start my day. It's all a rumble in my head, saying- calm down first! No, do 1 thing, anything- no, this part of work, this call, this file. I'm panicky and so it's all evened out. And now I don't know whether to try to calm myself, or try to make some to do list in this state.
I'm sorry if this is a lot of venting, I haven't gotten like this in a while, and I still haven't quite learned how to handle it better.
I think I may journal after breakfast, try to put some order in all this, and then jump into work...But if anyone has any useful coping tips of how they order their work tasks(especially if you have a desk job, with lots of small tasks through the day) etc. when in higher anxiety state that will be appreciated. I don't know how much I can apply in this state right now, but I should start working on it otherwise so I'm more able to cope otherwise. (though I do have to admit writing this black on white is helping a bit)
