I was diagnosed this year with PTSD after 3 years of trying to fight my anxiety, the panic attacks. I've spoken about what happened to close friends and my mom, none of whom can begin to understand what it is like. They all think I'm ok, that it's not a big deal and it makes me feel like I'm fighting against myself.
My recent diagnoses has brought up a lot of old demons, my very vague childhood makes me wonder if the trauma had been there way before my accident. My parents divorced when I was 2 and a half after years of abuse my father inflicted on my mother. Since I was a child, I've been fighting my emotions, my mind.
I tried to kill myself when I was 5, I had a lot of therapists growing up, and my most recent one I've stopped seeing, even though he was the only one that got it. I also have ADD and have been misdiagnosed with TLE, I was on the wrong medication for a year before the doctor figured it out. My life hasn't really been the same since my cat accident, it took one traumatic experience to dig up old demons.
Am I always going to feel that I'm fighting this alone, does it really get better? Sometimes I feel that I'm going to be stuck battling myself for the rest of my life.
My recent diagnoses has brought up a lot of old demons, my very vague childhood makes me wonder if the trauma had been there way before my accident. My parents divorced when I was 2 and a half after years of abuse my father inflicted on my mother. Since I was a child, I've been fighting my emotions, my mind.
I tried to kill myself when I was 5, I had a lot of therapists growing up, and my most recent one I've stopped seeing, even though he was the only one that got it. I also have ADD and have been misdiagnosed with TLE, I was on the wrong medication for a year before the doctor figured it out. My life hasn't really been the same since my cat accident, it took one traumatic experience to dig up old demons.
Am I always going to feel that I'm fighting this alone, does it really get better? Sometimes I feel that I'm going to be stuck battling myself for the rest of my life.
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