Sufferer Medical Trauma/Told I deserved it.

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I have recorded much of what I am about to say. So this is quite serious and worse yet ongoing.

The following was told to me.

When my heart stopped twice: A Doctor told me I was not helped on purpose.
Told to go kill myself.
Told Doctors listen to other Doctors and don’t listen to their patients.
Told no one cares about you.
Told given prednsione induced diabetes 9.4 A1C, heart failure and kidney failure on purpose.
Told I deserved it way too many times.
Told by ethics: Doctors are screwing with me.
Told many times a certain Doctor is mad at you.
Doctor who harmed me, you can’t sue me.
Told by Doctor to stop going to Doctors.
Told by mental Doctor, I was lied to dating back to 2011. That a certain Doctor is mad at me.
Told by mental health provider they never heard of Such a thing in their 30 years in the medical field. They also knew it to be truthful.

Threatened multiple times as well.

Unless you say your Doctor did not understand mental health disease, you should fear what more Doctors could do to you.
Told unless you admit to the disease Doctors were screwing with me, you will never know what is wrong with you.

Many life threatening asthma events. Not helped with For 13 years running now. Found asthma on insurance papers, what Doctors are getting paid for.
Many things physically wrong with me. New things related to asthma or prednsione use.

PTSD diagnosed in 2018, not told. Told to seek care elsewhere with no diagnosis. New Doctor was going to send me to outpatient clinic with no diagnosis.
Received diagnosis in 2022, then found old diagnosis in my medical records. I have received no help.

Told by trauma specialist, the chances of getting someone to help with be next to nil. Due to how I received the trauma. This provider was going to help me forward by having me say I wanted the disease Doctors were screwing me with.

So I have on purpose I was harmed. I have fraud. Abuse. Both Mental and Physical. I continue to get gaslighted. I told a counselor in a state who could not help me, she said if you are getting abused by mental health people, that is serious. I am.

There is zero path forward in life. At least none I can see.

Have PTSD and depression.

Psychosis Was ruled out.​

Which means they know I am being truthful.

At this point, if I die it is not because of suicide. It is because of abuse. I have tried for 13 years to get proper medical care. But one mad Doctor (angry over something unethical) is controlling my care long after I left her behind.

Why angry Doctor? What she told me and another Doctor said it too. I talked about another Doctor and some Doctors don’t like that. Doctor then said, she no longer uses the Doctor I complained about because of all the complaints. Bad timing, I must have been the first.
 
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Welcome to the forum. It sounds like you’ve had some really awful experiences. Hopefully this place is a helpful resource for you moving forward:)
 
Welcome to the forum. It sounds like you’ve had some really awful experiences. Hopefully this place is a helpful resource for you moving forward:)
I understand about going to see someone for help. I have for 9 years, since I was told I was not helped on purpose when my heart stopped twice.

First counselor said after talking to Doctor, “I deserved it”. No one since has said I don’t deserve it. I have been to many.

I deserve to not get helped on purpose apparently. But at least those mental health professionals are nice enough to tell me their actions are based because a Doctor is mad at me. Told exactly that by trauma specialist a few months ago.

I am tired of the abuse. And no, I did not deserve it. I have it on recordings, Doctor telling me she lies to other Doctors about me. There is zero hope.
 
So did your heart re-start on its own? You said you were not helped when your heart stopped.

And you did not get help with life threatening asthma attacks.

are you talking about many doctors or one doctor?

I hate to ask an obvious question but did you ever try to stop seeing the abusive doctor? There must be some honest doctors where you live

this is pretty serious because you have a lot of serious medical problems.

how are you taking care of your asthma? And your kidney failure? How are you getting medications?
 
Are you in the USA? If so, can you find new doctors and therapists and NOT transfer records? You will need to be vague, never speak their names, etc. Many will protect their own, so that’s why you need to be vague. Plus, there are likely lies in your charts. (I have lies in mine.)
 
So did your heart re-start on its own? You said you were not helped when your heart stopped.

And you did not get help with life threatening asthma attacks.

are you talking about many doctors or one doctor?

I hate to ask an obvious question but did you ever try to stop seeing the abusive doctor? There must be some honest doctors where you live

this is pretty serious because you have a lot of serious medical problems.

how are you taking care of your asthma? And your kidney failure? How are you getting medications?
I have papers that say severe, high risk asthma. They come directly from Doctors codes to get paid from insurance. They tell me something else. My heart is like many of my issues, they put EVERYTHING on the disease they are screwing me with Sarcoidosis. Diabetic feet: sarcoidosis. Heart: Sarcoidosis. Lungs: Sarcoidosis. It is EXACTLY what I was told I was being lied to. They knew my disease to be asthma. I was given prednsione induced diabetes on purpose, told and recorded.

My actually medical issues are prednsione induced diabetes on purpose and asthma. As ethics said, they are screwing with me.

Life threatening asthma attacks at Doctor’s offices, nothing they even happened. I either recorded them or wife present. Because if they don’t put them down, they never happened. I get lung tests that say asthma. Doctors tell me not asthma. I get breathing tests with a certain number that only has ONE diagnosis: Asthma. They tell me diagnosis that are the opposite of that number. Then tell me asthma number is unknown.

This is many Doctors and many states.

I stopped seeing the angry Doctor in 2015. The one who lied about me and lied to me. But the legacy of abuse continues. I will tell you why. They put the dreaded sue tag on me BEFORE they harmed me. I was told in 2011, you can’t sue me. Means this was planned. But the abuse continued and this seems to be the one I hear. I have heart damage. Lung Damage. Halfway to blind that they watched. Severe diabetic feet but don‘t have diabetes. Heart blockage. The angry Doctor tried to kill me physically. Then told me to go kill myself in 2014. Ok. Here is my question, WHY? Because I don’t get it.

Kidney failure and heart failure were due to prednsione induced diabetes. I will never take it again.

I was told by a Doctor to stop going to Doctors. I Have recordings. I tried after this. But I keep getting abuse. I am not getting proper medical care for asthma anyway. One example I get a rescue inhaler proven that it does not work. I can’t inhale on asthma attacks. I have a nebulizer given for Sarcoidosis asthma, or a disease the Doctor admitted does not exist. Only a nebulizer helps on attacks.

The asthma Doctor who told me I deserved it. Gives me an asthma test, if shows I don’t have asthma and don’t trigger. I believe the test was given was saline. They did not look right. Diagnosis: Not asthma. Or bogus test. I go to major hospital in UNC Doctor appointment. They do a staged asthma event, words told to me. I quickly go to low 80’s. Asthma Doctor puts me on COPD drugs that don’t work. Takes me off asthma drugs that do work. What does UNC do? Puts me back on asthma drugs that do work. But do not tell me asthma. What they give me is really special. A letter stating to look for a new Doctor at a lobbying group for Doctors.

At this point all my meds are up. Blood pressure I took for 30 years. Statin for 30 years. No asthma meds. I was told to only get a COVID vaccine when it is raging in your area Because that is how vaccines work.

I want one thing. I want to know why my oxygen goes to 70 on triggers. Or I want someone to tell me to my fact: YOU HAVE ASTHMA. Life threatening asthma. I want what was taken from me by angry Doctor. Proper care Because. I deserve it.

I once asked a Doctor: Do I get informed consent and if not why not? I got told and I quote, “What is that?” That sums up 13 years of my medical care. All trust is gone.
I was told to fear what more Doctors could do to you by a mental health Doctor. She knows I was recording her when she said it.
Am I better off not going to Doctors? No more mental abuse for sure. I am not being told what is wrong with me. Nor getting proper medical care. Nor the blood pressures of 200/120 at Doctor visits when I am being screwed with. Seriously, I just maybe better off not going.
 
Are you in the USA? If so, can you find new doctors and therapists and NOT transfer records? You will need to be vague, never speak their names, etc. Many will protect their own, so that’s why you need to be vague. Plus, there are likely lies in your charts. (I have lies in mine.)
Yes USA. I tried EVERYTHING for 9 years. Nothing works. I was disabled for a disease they knew I did not have. My lungs are damaged for a disease I did not have. My heart. My eyes, My nerves. And it was done on purpose. Told by many providers, but none can or will stop it.

There is no hope. Not suicide, I will die soon. From the lack of care when they know what is wrong with me. I will tell you what they want and why. Much of what is my past medical is FRAUD. Not malpractice. NoT a boo boo. On purpose and told to me.

I have multiple damaged things wrong with me directly related to not being helped on purpose. Directly related to Doctors lying on their records. Directly lying to ethics, insurance and disability. Fraud.

What they want me to do is admit I wanted the fraud. That is what I need to say. I wanted it to be Sarcoidosis. I have recordings on why I am being abused. It is ONE DOCTOR.

I was told exactly who did this to me by a Doctor. They know. They know I was lied to. They know it is because of an angry Doctor.

So where do you go once a Doctor mistreated you. Harmed you physically and mentally. Where many know everything BUT the true cause of the abuse.

Asthma Doctor who told me I deserved it. I said because I talked about other Doctors? He said that too. No, that is the reason I was told in 2014. Doctor, you are being lied to. But it continues.

I am going to die one way or another. So why deal with mental and physical abuse? I need the abuse to stop. The lies to stop.

I was told by a mental health provider, she never heard of such a thing in her 30 years in the medical field. She also told me it is true. Yes, it is THAT BAD. I had a Doctor mad at me, tried to murder me. Or have me kill myself. Over “talking” about another Doctor. That is she did not coordinate my care. Made mistakes. I was scared not mad. She decided to get even. This feels like high school bullying. Pure and simple.

I am done, stick a fork in me.
 
I can’t imagine anyone able to help you with this other than lawyers.
No lawyer will touch me and Doctors know it. Why? This is NOT malpractice. It is on purpose. When you sue a Doctor, you get money from malpractice claims. Every single malpractice insurance company puts in one little note.

If your Doctor harmed you on purpose we don’t pay. No lawyer is going to sue and take a complex medical case for zero money. Already told that.

I was told by Medicare, tell your local police. As this is criminal. I did. They direct me to ethics. Ethics does not take recordings and the bogus Doctor notes are gospel. Someone told them, I was being screwed with. I don’t know who. What else did the police tell me to do? Go to the attorney general. I sent something in. Crickets. I sent in Medicare fraud, one agreed with. I sent in multiple hipaa violations, they agreed with one. Doctors attempted to double bill me.

You have no idea the abuse. Worst yet, it is all over a lie. I can do nothing about it. I will die soon. It is not suicide and don’t send police to my home. They have come multiple times. They stay less than 15 minutes. I show them recordings. I show them papers I have. They leave shaking their heads saying “Doctors”. But I was told if they get a court order to send me to a mental hospital they have to do it. They also told me exactly how to fight it. I tell mental health providers this that brought this up. One threatened me with it. I said, go ahead and do it. Then and only then will a lawyer take me on. The recordings will be played in a court of law. Been 2 years like this. No one is sending me to the mental hospital. They know what is on the recordings. Abuse on a major scale. Close to death multiple times. Wrong drugs. Wrong disease to disable me. Harm me on purpose. Insurance fraud. Medicare fraud. Disability fraud.

Doctors will lose more than their license. They will lose their freedom. This is major jail time and they know it. That is why I must admit, I wanted to be abused.
 
hey @MPH , it kinda sounds like you are being diagnosed with things that you are disagreeing with and self diagnosing instead? It all sounds so confusing and hard to grasp. The dr has said COPD and has prescribed medication for that but you say it's asthma?

Do you have any other mental health issues that you struggle with? I am thinking that maybe if you seek help in that area it will have a ripple effect and help you with your physical ailments.
 
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