Sufferer Medical Trauma/Told I deserved it.

[MPH]

hey @MPH , it kinda sounds like you are being diagnosed with things that you are disagreeing with and self diagnosing instead? It all sounds so confusing and hard to grasp. The dr has said COPD and has prescribed medication for that but you say it's asthma?

Do you have any other mental health issues that you struggle with? I am thinking that maybe if you seek help in that area it will have a ripple effect and help you with your physical ailments.

It is called fraud. That is a Doctor told me I was lied to BEFORE I was disabled in 2011. Doctors KNEW I had asthma. Doctor 2014 told me I was NOT helped on purpose. I recorded it.

Get it? Physical and mental abuse. Why? I have been told MANY times because a certain Doctor is/was MAD at me.


I have a ton of papers from insurance that say severe, high risk asthma. They are auto-generated from Doctor‘s notes. Or what Doctors are getting paid for. That is what I was told. Doctors tell me something else.

It is as Ethics told me, Doctors are screwing with me. ABUSE.

 

[OliveJewel]

was told by a mental health provider, she never heard of such a thing in her 30 years in the medical field. She also told me it is true.

This is the kind of mental health provider I would look for if I were in your situation. Can you return to them? This could take years to unravel and develop a sense of stability over.

Many of us here have been to multiple providers who discounted and dismissed our cases. It takes a shit ton of persistence unfortunately just to find one person who is able to manage a case effectively, especially with complex trauma.

Have you thought about starting a trauma diary to continue venting all the shit you’re dealing with? Obviously none of us can help you directly but some of us can listen and support you as you work through the understandable anger.

 

[MPH]

hey @MPH , it kinda sounds like you are being diagnosed with things that you are disagreeing with and self diagnosing instead? It all sounds so confusing and hard to grasp. The dr has said COPD and has prescribed medication for that but you say it's asthma?

Do you have any other mental health issues that you struggle with? I am thinking that maybe if you seek help in that area it will have a ripple effect and help you with your physical ailments.

If I was allowed to post pictures I could show you what is being told to me and what insurance said. They are different diseases.

This is the kind of mental health provider I would look for if I were in your situation. Can you return to them? This could take years to unravel and develop a sense of stability over.

Many of us here have been to multiple providers who discounted and dismissed our cases. It takes a shit ton of persistence unfortunately just to find one person who is able to manage a case effectively, especially with complex trauma.

Have you thought about starting a trauma diary to continue venting all the shit you’re dealing with? Obviously none of us can help you directly but some of us can listen and support you as you work through the understandable anger.

This mental health person was a health coach, was mine, with Medicare insurance company. Can’t be her. There was a counselor in another state, but she can’t. I had a mental counselor in Virginia diagnosis me with PTSD. Then told me it is fraud. Then told me she does not have the trauma experience to help me. Gives me referrals. NONE of them will take me.

 

[DharmaGirl]

If it is Medicare fraud, you can contact Medicare and they will investigate.

 

[OliveJewel]

I had a mental counselor in Virginia diagnosis me with PTSD. Then told me it is fraud. Then told me she does not have the trauma experience to help me. Gives me referrals. NONE of them

I will reiterate what I said. Many of us have been discounted and discredited and discouraged by a series of providers.

 

[MPH]

If it is Medicare fraud, you can contact Medicare and they will investigate.

I did Multiple times. They put PTSD and said I am a liar. I have recordings. Papers. Screen shots Of nasty things said to me.

This is about a Doctor being a bully.

 

[MPH]

I will reiterate what I said. Many of us have been discounted and discredited and discouraged by a series of providers.

I believe you. Where do you go once abused by Doctors? No where.

 

[Sideways]

Where do you go once abused by Doctors? No where.

@MPH - what sort of responses are you hoping for, and what do you think would be helpful to you from this forum?

 

[OliveJewel]

Where do you go once abused by Doctors? No where.

This is multiple cognitive distortions wrapped up in one. Very common to feel that your personal trauma is beyond help or repair. People sexually abused as babies by their parents, people trafficked as children and brainwashed to commit violent crimes, people abandoned by their parents and abused by predators—these are example of abuses where people repeatedly feel like they have nowhere to go. Not saying these are worse than your experience but that people understand feeling like they have nowhere to go based on their abuse history. There are many threads about just that here on the forum.

It is also very common to feel that you can predict the future by saying things like, “No one will ever listen, I will die soon and alone, my life is over because of the abuse.” Again there are many threads here about that.

Those are just symptoms. Feelings and thoughts are not truths, even if they feel like it. But I don’t think I could convince you of that. You are right to be angry. Understandable to most on here. But like Sideways said, what would you like from this forum? What do you need people here to do for you? Because if you share that then people can see if it’s something they are able to do.

 

[MPH]

@MPH - what sort of responses are you hoping for, and what do you think would be helpful to you from this forum?

I had no expectations whatsoever. With maybe one exception, maybe I find someone who wants to go forward with me (Mental health person). Then coming here I could get advice on healing.

Sorry to be a burden.

 

[MPH]

This is multiple cognitive distortions wrapped up in one. Very common to feel that your personal trauma is beyond help or repair. People sexually abused as babies by their parents, people trafficked as children and brainwashed to commit violent crimes, people abandoned by their parents and abused by predators—these are example of abuses where people repeatedly feel like they have nowhere to go. Not saying these are worse than your experience but that people understand feeling like they have nowhere to go based on their abuse history. There are many threads about just that here on the forum.

It is also very common to feel that you can predict the future by saying things like, “No one will ever listen, I will die soon and alone, my life is over because of the abuse.” Again there are many threads here about that.

Those are just symptoms. Feelings and thoughts are not truths, even if they feel like it. But I don’t think I could convince you of that. You are right to be angry. Understandable to most on here. But like Sideways said, what would you like from this forum? What do you need people here to do for you? Because if you share that then people can see if it’s something they are able to do.

If I did not have recordings, they could be assumed to be anything. But I have recordings, they are truths. Doctors know it.

 

[Sideways]

Then coming here I could get advice on healing.

This is something the forum does brilliantly. Not connecting in real life, but sharing experiences about ways to heal from the trauma’s we’ve experienced.