I always find that when your down people will try to kick you even harder so I stay there in that state. This way they dont have to deal with me, how awful is that? This is the power my family has over me. but my problem is jealousy in my family and their inability to control their jealousy.
If they see you doing good or are happy, they will not feel this goodness for you. They put you down to bring you to where they are feeling because, they cant have this feeling..... its sick! Its like being greedy for attention and I cant walk away or I'll have nothing too. Either I will die living on the streets, or die in my house, for lack of nurture.
My family's way of love is, I give you money,(there for money has emotions) you are nothing I am better then you. I will do every thing to keep this going, making you believe this. there ****ed up. OP I think your a wonderful human being. how about that. You know why because you are mindful of what happen to you. Most people are not and go on abusing others. I Know because sometimes I have too catch myself because I pick up shit from my home life.
