Mentals Friday. Advice.

[Wagon]

Ok. I did it. Feeling a bit out of sorts at the moment, but it is done.

6 and a half pages of I don't know what. Some history, a little gore. Not much. I applied some white wash there I'm afraid. Basically 20 years of f*ck ups, bad feelings and regret.

Ok. Next step.

I'm reminded of the theme song to the musical "Paint Your Wagon" if anyone knows that. "Where are we going? I don't know. How do we get there? I don't care. All I know is we are on our way."

 

[Anglesachse]

I know what you mean, I guess I had it pretty simple getting onto the system as a wreck in need of help. Being admitted to the local nut house`s secure ward under suicide watch tends to help.

Before that it was allways a matter, Nowt wrong with me, don`t need that.

I would like to get some benifits, but I am still to proud to be working, I wouldn`t go there untill I am a real wreck, so untill then its me jobing away, besides, I wouldn`t know what to do with myself.

Sure work is also stress, and there are days I could throw some customers through the window (without opening it) but it keeps me occupied, gives me a proper reason to get up of a morning.

I do get the Meds and Therapies with out any hassle, just phone them and thats its.

 

[Ned]

Ok. I did it. Feeling a bit out of sorts at the moment, but it is done.

6 and a half pages of I don't know what. Some history, a little gore. Not much. I applied some white wash there I'm afraid. Basically 20 years of f*ck ups, bad feelings and regret.

Good one, mate. Just resist the temptation to pretty it up.

 

[Anglesachse]

seconded

 

[Wagon]

I tried to stick to short facts. And also I described emotions, but never using the buzz words. The only gloss is the beginning, but I think I portrayed allot of stuff. I mean, I was disturbed after writing it, so. And I wrote down some things I don't normally say.

Then there is the whole 20 years up till now. Examples. lol. Man I could write a book on bad behaviour. I'm actually surprised I managed to accomplish anything.

 

[Anglesachse]

...............Then there is the whole 20 years up till now. Examples.............

I think that is one of the bastard parts of the whole beast issue.

15 years after I left it was "oh yeah, Mr you have been realy f*cked up by the Military" 15 years of being an arse. I may not have done anything 15 years ago if I had known, but it might of given me a better chance of dealing with it rather than having wasted a lot of my life.

 

[Wagon]

You said allot there Brother. Man... It's like I was some sort of highly motivated destructive prick.

Now I feel like someone has clipped my wings proper. No flying allowed.

 

[Jimmy1]

Hey Wagon Mate,

Now that you have it all off your chest and have emptied your vault, you can feel a little deflated. It can be like someone has put a drain hole in on all your pent up emotions.

 

[Ned]

Wagon. Hope you get the most you can today. It's not High Noon, remember...
Give us a sitrep after?

 

[Wagon]

Yeah, about to go and pace out side the building for an hour or so. Always paranoid about being late.

I'll catch up after. Thanks

 

[Anglesachse]

You`ll do good Wagon,

 

[Wagon]

Ok. That went pretty well. Handed in my diatribe of ills and talked about things in general for awhile. These are history establishing sessions. I have to go through 2 more 1 hr sessions.

The woman was ok too. Two things I noted. She did her best to make me feel comfortable. In the beginning she explained about the confidentiality and so forth. She also told me that if after the sessions if some of her questions were too much and it caused me anxiety, I should tell her and she would slow things down. Not so bad.

Thanks for support.