I have lots to say, although I won't say most of it here. I can't yet.
I was diagnosed with PTSD and c-PTSD, both, in 2008.
What happened? A nearly fatal car crash. (My epileptic ex was driving.) A lifetime of abuse from my family, including my mother, who was hospitalized many times and diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. A lifetime of bullying at school. Years of stalking by an abusive, misogynistic ex and his brothers. Years of cyberstalking by a computer science student I've never met, who hacked me many times.
Then I caught the attention of some malicious hackers in 2011 and my life became a living hell for years. I realize how weird that sounds. That's why I'd like to share my story slowly, over time. Trust is a big issue with me. I assume that others always have ulterior motives.
So, hi. I'm an animal person. I have lots of hobbies, like hiking and photography. Currently I live on Disability, but I plan to rejoin the workforce in a few months.
I struggle with revenge fantasies against my stalkers, first and foremost. I'm furious that I've never gotten closure. I have problems with anger and aggression, lashing out, especially when it feels like someone is trying to control me. I'm a fluffy nice person behind the bared fangs and claws, really, but it takes a lot for me to let you in.
I don't feel fear nearly as much as I used to, but I'm still not normal or functional. I hope I can heal and learn that not everyone is out to get me, but after nude pictures of me were splashed across the Internet, frankly, it won't be easy.
I'm grateful to have a few good friends who are here for me no matter what. I look forward to interacting here.
I was diagnosed with PTSD and c-PTSD, both, in 2008.
What happened? A nearly fatal car crash. (My epileptic ex was driving.) A lifetime of abuse from my family, including my mother, who was hospitalized many times and diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. A lifetime of bullying at school. Years of stalking by an abusive, misogynistic ex and his brothers. Years of cyberstalking by a computer science student I've never met, who hacked me many times.
Then I caught the attention of some malicious hackers in 2011 and my life became a living hell for years. I realize how weird that sounds. That's why I'd like to share my story slowly, over time. Trust is a big issue with me. I assume that others always have ulterior motives.
So, hi. I'm an animal person. I have lots of hobbies, like hiking and photography. Currently I live on Disability, but I plan to rejoin the workforce in a few months.
I struggle with revenge fantasies against my stalkers, first and foremost. I'm furious that I've never gotten closure. I have problems with anger and aggression, lashing out, especially when it feels like someone is trying to control me. I'm a fluffy nice person behind the bared fangs and claws, really, but it takes a lot for me to let you in.
I don't feel fear nearly as much as I used to, but I'm still not normal or functional. I hope I can heal and learn that not everyone is out to get me, but after nude pictures of me were splashed across the Internet, frankly, it won't be easy.
I'm grateful to have a few good friends who are here for me no matter what. I look forward to interacting here.
