Mother

[Milo's papa]

@Cj77, It is not uncommon to take a considerable time to find the right T, one that you can work with and be comfortable with and confident in. Once you find that person, healing can begin in earnest.

I wish you all the best.

@Junebug, thank you, I wish for you the same.

 

[Deleted member 29920]

To ****

I wish I hadn't remembered. I sometimes wish I could have just kept going along with things the way they were. Weird how my life would be so much easier if I could have just done that.

I feel so lost in this awful existence.

 

[Milo's papa]

@Cj77, it will get better, I promise you that. I am proof there is a "normal" life on the other side of this Hell you are going through.

Hang tough, I'm pullinng for you every day. PM me anytime you need to talk. I will be happy to help in any way I can.:hug:

 

[Deleted member 12723]

@Cj77 I am rooting for you as well. It does get better as you sort out your memories, feelings and thoughts and move on to the next one. Each time you resolve an issue it a step that you will never have to repeat. That is one way I measured my own progress.:hug:

 

[Deleted member 29920]

It occurred to me that my mother really was quite certain that I'd forgotten what she done to me. There are so many times I remember her talking or writing about not remembering other things. I feel so betrayed. I hope I can get past this.

 

[Deleted member 29920]

Thank you @gizmo, I took a little bit of time away from the thread, it brings a lot of pain I find hard to handle :hug:

 

[Deleted member 29920]

Thank you @Milo's papa, I hope to get the normal life, this is all very painful, I want it to go away. I told my T it has been a disaster remembering.

 

[Milo's papa]

@Cj77, the remembering part is really a bit**, but you will get trough it. The other side is pretty damn nice, most of the time.

 

[Deleted member 29920]

I so desperately want the good bits. I've caught glimpses of them.

I hate that she put her pain and anger in to me. I don't want to carry it around any more.

Yesterday I began to understand better. It hurts though. I have to be strong. I have to get out of the wilderness.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I believe that you will.:hug:

 

[Deleted member 29920]

I want you to be right (((((@gizmo)))))

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I want you free from all of the past crapola.