Strong emotions are upsetting sometimes when I see or hear them in others. I sometimes cannot help but get a bit riled when others raise their voices or act out in some way over-emotionally. Sometimes there is a good reason for this, I know, but really, no one likes raw emotions when they are the target of them. For me, however, even just listening to them is something that will raise my heart rate and increase my breathing. My parents used to argue a lot. I so hated that, that I left their house and never returned to stay there for more than just a visit here or there, because of their anger and arguments. It was so unsettling. One thing that really irked me too, is that a lot of their arguments were about how to raise us kids. Mostly I was the problem child, what with my various mental ills and dyslexia too. We all have pretty high IQs so they could not fathom why I was unable to learn! I was just so frustrated too, but I had no way to express my frustrations as it was not allowed for me to be angry! I was subjected to their anger every day of my childhood, but not allowed to express any of my own anger. Not openly anyway, but I did express it in hidden ways, I think. I would purposely be annoying, for instance. LOL...
