My Friend And Neighbour Just Died

[Deleted member 12723]

I am so sorry Sammy for your loss of your friend, I cannot imagine how you must be feeling at this time, my heart goes out to you, you are in my prayers and thoughts.:hug::hug::hug:

 

[Sammyiam]

Thank you everyone, I've just woken up. Will I should say got up as not a lot of sleep happened. I was the last one to talk to her and I know she felt safe. She didn't realise what was happening, I just feel numb really going through the motions. When my mum died I didn't feel like this I felt nothing as I knew that she didn't love me. she just didn't have enough love for me only enough for my sister. She made that very clear in her actions so I wasn't sad because I just knew she didn't really like or love me. She was embarrassed by me as I didn't dress like my sister, had curly hair which she hated as it was longer and scruffy looking, she always told me everything she hated about me. My job my house just everything. She told me I wished you were your sister, I don't know what went wrong with you, I really don't. But my neighbour told me not to let her get to me , and that I was a good mum and nana. She told me all the opposite things that my mum told me. Just before she died she talked about my children growing up and how proud she was of them. My mum never said that. This time my friend liked and loved everyone and was like a step mum to lots of people left my their own mums. It just feels so different I feel sad and don't want her to be gone.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

:hug::hug::hug:

 

[Friday]

It just feels so different I feel sad and don't want her to be gone.

She will always be in your heart, and your memories. And sometimes that will hurt. The losing of her, the grief at her loss, the love she bore you. When we lose good people, their leaving hurts. Their joys & pride & warmth & love can feel so heavy in their absence. But the memories of her? That some of her last words were to share how proud she is of you & your children? What hurts now, is sometimes because it's searing itself into your bones, so that you'll never truly lose her. I'm so glad she was in your life, Sammy, and that you were in hers.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Sammy I have not yet lost a good friend where we love each other so I know that when it happens to me I will really mourn and cry and I never cry. Just take really good care of you and take naps or whatever it takes to calm and soothe you. I know easier said that done, but this is a pretty heavy duty loss for you at this time. Your friend was so loved by your being there to see her out. :hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug:

 

[Recovery4Me]

My thoughts and prayers are with you, Sammyiam during this difficult time. I am sorry for such a sad loss, as that of a loving friend... ((((hugs)))). We are here, dear.

 

[joeylittle]

Sending you tons of love and thinking of you, @Sammyiam. I'm so sorry to hear of your friend.

 

[Recovery4Me]

Touching base to let you know the luv and warmth is still being sent across the net by many. ((((hugs))))