Skywatcher
MyPTSD Pro
My T and I had a rupture close to 2 years ago. We worked through it. Went through a lot of developmental trauma exploration and my Big T’s. I even trust her now. I do believe she cares about me in and out of the therapy room. However, this rupture that changed our original email structure pops up every few months. The times we revisited it, I would ask for a change, she would get defensive and I would leave angry. We’d end up in a phone call with me crying and working it out. She had me do flash emdr on the original boundary placement last week. She wants me to process these feelings. Apparently, they welled up inside me yesterday in the form of extreme anger, followed by guilt. Oddly, I feel like I have processed a bunch more of it this time.
I started to write out my whole experience from this mess and was planning yet another negotiation and my reasons. In that process, I started to wonder if I even want the changes I am asking for. I’m not sure if I don’t trust myself or if I’m just afraid of being rejected yet again.
Has anyone ever asked your therapist to negotiate a boundary that they initially added to protect the relationship?
I started to write out my whole experience from this mess and was planning yet another negotiation and my reasons. In that process, I started to wonder if I even want the changes I am asking for. I’m not sure if I don’t trust myself or if I’m just afraid of being rejected yet again.
Has anyone ever asked your therapist to negotiate a boundary that they initially added to protect the relationship?