Sufferer New And A Little Nervous

[BlackbirdSinging]

Hi everyone.. It's hard for me to open up and talk about my past but, I'll do my best.

I was sexually abused by a close family friend as a child, raped as a teenager and violated by a teacher in high school. As an adult I was mentally, emotionally and verbally abused by my ex husband who I was married to for 6 years. Later I met a guy and we were together for 11 years. The first 2 years were great but, we started having problems and he became emotionally abusive and used passive aggressive behaviors to "punish" me by way of completely ignoring and stonewalling me for days and eventually weeks at a time.

I haven't been diagnosed but, I've read about PTSD and C PTSD. And given the amount, types and duration of abuse I've gone through ..the symptoms of what I go through sound very similar to C PTSD. It's just a matter of getting in to see someone who can diagnose me ..or not. I hope to talk to people here who might understand the things I go through. I hope to exchange support and encouragement with people here too. I hope that wasn't too long of a post lol. Thanks for reading it :).

 

[Whitneys story]

Hi and Welcome to the Forum. Please do not feel nervous. I am so glad you have started your journey.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

Hi and Welcome to the Forum. Please do not feel nervous. I am so glad you have started your journey.

Thank you Whitney :). It's hard to talk about but, I'm having such a hard time managing symptoms on my own. I'm really needing support or encouragement or something to start getting better. I can't keep going through it all over and over. The symptoms just make it so hard to be open and trust people.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Welcome to the forum. :)

Please keep in mind that CPTSD is no longer a diagnoses.

 

[Chantal]

Welcome!

Your formula of trauma's is the type to give someone PTSD. I'm no specialist or doctor but my formula of trauma's is similar to yours. Everyone deals with trauma's differently and everyone takes a different pace to recovery.

If you do get diagnosed with PTSD this is a perfect place to find support and people you can relate to, to ease the feeling of being alone with this.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

Thank you for the welcome Ayesha and Chantal. Ayesha I wasn't aware C PTSD wasn't a diagnosis anymore. Thanks for letting me know :).

 

[KP the nut]

Welcome to the forum.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

Welcome to the forum.

Thank you KP :).

 

[Deleted member 1860]

Well, really, CPTSD never really was a diagnosis. Not technically anyway. Anthony has lots of info about the new DSM revisions, so you can read up on it here on the forum.

And, Welcome!!

 

[anthony]

Welcome to the forum black bird...

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

Thank you Scared and Anthony :). It's still a little foreign to be openly talking about all of this when for so long I tried to keep it to myself. It's really quite an adjustment. I think I'm going to busy doing a lot of reading around here.

 

[anthony]

It is quite healing within itself to do nothing more than remove all the secrets from yourself, and especially with the anonymity of the web to do just that.