Sufferer New And A Little Nervous

[bird]

Hi BlackbirdRising :hug:

Well done for taking the steps to find a diagnosis and support :tup: - it can be so hard if it's early days for you. Try to be patient and generous with yourself when you know you're having a bad day. I'm new to the forum too and hoping to find great encouragement from others. There's so much to read and absorb on here... experiences of abuse may be stressful to write / read, but it's a healing process in itself to be honest to a bunch of like-minded strangers with a pseudonym. We all express ourselves in different ways so try a creative way to release energy, going for a walk or a run, painting, yoga. If you feel you have body issues, something physical is good for self confidence and empowerment, not to mention your health if you feel low.
I'm personally using the 'one day at a time' approach and trying to reward myself when I've had a bad day/ week.

Take care xxx

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

It is quite healing within itself to do nothing more than remove all the secrets from yourself, and especially with the anonymity of the web to do just that.

Very true Anthony. The anonymity makes it a little easier to talk about things but, talking about things brings up images and memories and the dreaded feelings. I hate to feel them ..they are so ..sometimes overwhelming. But, I know I have to talk about it. I know I need to heal somehow. And I want to. I can't keep going in circles like this ..and I know I will until I deal with the hard stuff that continues to pop up and face me. I'm so glad there are people who get it.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

Hi BlackbirdRising :hug:

Well done for taking the steps to find a diagnosis and support :tup: - it can be so hard if it's early days for you. Try to be patient and generous with yourself when you know you're having a bad day. I'm new to the forum too and hoping to find great encouragement from others. There's so much to read and absorb on here... experiences of abuse may be stressful to write / read, but it's a healing process in itself to be honest to a bunch of like-minded strangers with a pseudonym. We all express ourselves in different ways so try a creative way to release energy, going for a walk or a run, painting, yoga. If you feel you have body issues, something physical is good for self confidence and empowerment, not to mention your health if you feel low.
I'm personally using the 'one day at a time' approach and trying to reward myself when I've had a bad day/ week.

Take care xxx

Thank you Bird. It is very hard.. and the days of talking about it openly are very new. Which is weird because, some of this is so far back in my past and ironically still feels so raw somehow. I wish I was more patient and I wish I was more kind to myself when everything kicks up. I mean I am to a point but, I get impatient with myself and basically tell myself to "shut up" with the thoughts that come up. I get so upset with myself for feeling like I have to be on alert to protect myself from the next incoming blow. See.. now that made me want to cry. Self pity? I don't know maybe.

I do have hobbies and things that I try to do to distract myself when I'm in the thick of anxiety or another emotion.. but, I've recently learned that I first have to calm myself down physically or almost nothing will distract me. I'm glad you're here and I really appreciate your input. Thank you again :hug:.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I finally got a therapist. I also, got my PTSD diagnosis. Seems strange but, I feel almost relieved.. knowing what I've been going through is real and treatable and valid.

 

[YogiBear]

I really like your name. I think it teaches us a lot. That perhaps some good can come out of bad things we experienced.

 

[intothelight]

Welcome to the PTSD Forum! :)

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

Yogi.. thank you. It gives me hope too. What goes up must come down.. often we forget that what is held down must also, rise. Hope no matter how far away.. is still there.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

intothelight.. thank you :).

 

[user17231]

I finally got a therapist. I also, got my PTSD diagnosis. Seems strange but, I feel almost relieved.. knowing what I've been going through is real and treatable and valid.

I remember thinking the exact same thing when I went in after way too long. I went in with a self-diagnosis of social anxiety disorder, never having suspected my past. After a few visits she explained what PTSD was, and started asking the uncomfortable questions that made is quite clear I wasn't over my childhood the way I thought I was.

Thanks for updating this thread, it's great to see progress people are making around us! I hope your therapist is as helpful as mine has been, and that you begin to see some breakthroughs that make life easier!

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I hope your therapist is as helpful as mine has been, and that you begin to see some breakthroughs that make life easier!

Thank you for the welcome! My new therapist really nice and I have a really good feeling about her :) .