Hello. I'm new here and was recently diagnosed with PTSD, although that diagnosis is about 20 years late. I'm currently dealing with yet another PTSD response after a particularly bad flashback. I've lost 40 lbs. in the last 3 months, and I feel like I am going crazy sometimes. Thankfully, I think the worst has passed, but it's still very touch and go. Some days are good, and some are terrible. Come to think of it, some hours, or minutes are great and then they turn terrible. The lack of control messes with me. I've been through these before and they can last for days or years. The idea is overwhelming to me. My marriage is in trouble for several reasons. Not the least of which is my own triggered response to life in general and the knowledge that I can possibly be stuck here, in PTSD hell for who knows how long. Right now, I am undergoing EMDR therapy, and I feel stronger every week. But I'm also unsure of so many things. Not knowing which feelings to trust is a real mind f*@k. I know I'm not alone. For better or worse I have friends here, in Traumaland, who see me and hear me. We are like ghosts who walk around in the real world, recognizing each other and understanding. I'm thankful for their presence and so sorry all at the same time. Anyway, hi, and thanks for this community.