kittiekittie
Bronze Member
So I went back to see my therapist, and she revealed her new diagnoses to me. I now have no diagnosable mental disorder! She said I do have symptoms of things, but not enough diagnosable criteria. For the remainder of my time with her, we will be working on emotional regulation since I have always been kind of dysregulated and tend to look to self destructive tendencies to regulate my stress and emotions.
She asked me how I felt, and at first I didn't know how to feel. On one hand I felt slightly upset, what do you mean, I have nothing? I have gotten used to the labels, the processes. I mean part of me wanted to ask, so does this make me normal now? Even though there isn't really a 'normal' per se.
When I reflected on it more, it actually felt kind of freeing. It felt like the past 10 years spent in therapy actually accomplished something. Instead of feeling like I had gone nowhere, I had actually achieved some positive results. When I came to that conclusion I started to feel really good about it. We have 12-16 more sessions left, and after that I can decide to join group therapy if I feel I need to do more work. We will be doing dbt, which is new for me.
I am going to see how these sessions go, and if I am still in a positive place and doing well with the skills I learn to regulate my emotions, I will be considering decreasing and discontinuing my medication.
For a period of time I did not think that this would even be possible.
She asked me how I felt, and at first I didn't know how to feel. On one hand I felt slightly upset, what do you mean, I have nothing? I have gotten used to the labels, the processes. I mean part of me wanted to ask, so does this make me normal now? Even though there isn't really a 'normal' per se.
When I reflected on it more, it actually felt kind of freeing. It felt like the past 10 years spent in therapy actually accomplished something. Instead of feeling like I had gone nowhere, I had actually achieved some positive results. When I came to that conclusion I started to feel really good about it. We have 12-16 more sessions left, and after that I can decide to join group therapy if I feel I need to do more work. We will be doing dbt, which is new for me.
I am going to see how these sessions go, and if I am still in a positive place and doing well with the skills I learn to regulate my emotions, I will be considering decreasing and discontinuing my medication.
For a period of time I did not think that this would even be possible.
