Today I was at my GP - but since she was off work, I had to see her replacement - a male doctor:(
As soon as the door was closed, I felt my anxiety rising. And allthough I could sense that he was a nice guy, it did not take long before I had problems breathing. Luckily it was not an important session - I just needed refill on my prescriptions but even that became difficult - I got problems pronounsing some words. At last I managed to tell him why I reacted that way. then he opened the door for the rest of the session and he promised me that he should see to that I got a new appointment with a female doctor next month. Now I really understand why my therapist said I should see to that my dentist, GP and other professionals that I need to hav a relationship with are female.
However - there is a positiv side to this as well. I did not dissosiate in this situation as I would have a year ago.
Now I feel exhausted and sad - I thougt I was over theese attacs.
As soon as the door was closed, I felt my anxiety rising. And allthough I could sense that he was a nice guy, it did not take long before I had problems breathing. Luckily it was not an important session - I just needed refill on my prescriptions but even that became difficult - I got problems pronounsing some words. At last I managed to tell him why I reacted that way. then he opened the door for the rest of the session and he promised me that he should see to that I got a new appointment with a female doctor next month. Now I really understand why my therapist said I should see to that my dentist, GP and other professionals that I need to hav a relationship with are female.
However - there is a positiv side to this as well. I did not dissosiate in this situation as I would have a year ago.
Now I feel exhausted and sad - I thougt I was over theese attacs.