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[Stitchin]

Thanks everyone for these kind words. I am really struggling with emotional extremes. Logically I know things will get better. But it's hard because I also know they will get worse again. Not seeing much point in fighting for anything right now.

 

[Deleted member 44240]

Wow! This has so many parallels with my life at the moment. I was abused as a child, in all ways and I...

@Ice_Fire
I first would like to thank you for sharing your story in response to the other person's story. I too was recently in a same-sex relationship with a guy 16 years my junior (I'm 52) he's also a ptsd sufferer. We had a whirl-wind romance in the beginning for a very long time up until recently, he became very disconnected and uncaring. In the beginning we shared some very private information with each other, i.e., his ptsd, his being hiv+ were the biggest situations he mentioned and I accepted everything. I shared my ed situation with him which was the biggest situation I had. He reassured me that we didn't have anything to be concerned about as long as we had a plan. I was so happy to hear that I had finally met someone who didn't judge me based on uncontrollable things. I recently lost my job and he, although concerned, didn't seem to be majorly affected or worried. Without knowing better, I would ask certain questions concerning our relationship, concerning the cleanliness of where we lived, concerning communication, he didn't like any thing I was expressing to him; I guess now I can chalk it all up to stressors. I forgot to mention that he's also a full-time student. It hurts me to my core to know that my loving him has caused him to leave our space for whatever reason. I thought that I was doing a hell-of-a job with support, love and respect, but I guess it just wasn't enough. I've read a lot of articles on ptsd and certain characteristics and the common things mentioned are, move on, it could be ptsd or it might be him just deciding to leave, don't reach out to him. Needles to say that my trust has been compromised due to the abrupt manner of leaving, so I would welcome any response to my story which can give me a little more insight on what to possibly expect next.

Thank you