New: Molested, Raped, And Much More

[Inwardly_Broken]

Hi. I'll keep this rather short and sweet (okay, wrong word to use).

It all started when I was around 6 years old when I was molested. Years later I became depressed and injured myself. I got in the wrong crowd and started doing a lot of things that are against the law. I had a four boyfriends that were abusive in all sorts of ways but one was real bad.

In the worst relationship I was constantly raped, beaten, and torn down. I developed eating disorders so I could be the 'perfect' girl for him and in return I became his sex toy just so he wouldn't hurt me. Even though I live 8 hours away from him I still find myself running into him when I'm home. It seems like almsot every time I come back home he finds me and continues to abuse me; the last time was a year ago.

All of this has taken a huge toll on me and I have no idea how to deal with any of it or even how to really express myself. I try to open up to a few people close to me but they cannot relate and they do not understand. It is so frustrating. There is a lot more to say and explain but this is good for now. I think...?

 

[cherryblossom]

Hi Inwardly_Broken, welcome to the forum. Sorry to hear that you've been through such a rough time.

I try to open up to a few people close to me but they cannot relate and they do not understand. It is so frustrating.

I know it's not the same, but you can open up here. I'm sure that many people here will understand and offer you a listening ear.

Love the avatar - 'never give up' :thumbsup:

Welcome :wave:

 

[Inwardly_Broken]

Thanks cherryblossom! I have found a lot of support with the PTSD Forum and a few people there told me about this site. I'm looking forward to be able to talk to people who know what it's like, who can relate, but most importantly that can understand why I do certain things I do or do not do for that matter.

 

[Lucycat]

Hi Inwardly_Broken,

Welcome to the forum :)