So, EMDR worked brilliantly for me. The main affects being that I have been able to have sex and that I don't have panic attacks when people touch me. I have been dealing with a lot of more anger than I've ever experienced. I've been taking a two minute break from therapy to 'recover' as it was and my catch up meeting with my T is coming up. I'm not really sure where to go next.
I know CBT is an option but I tried it once and I had an almost abusive T who made things so much worse and she couldn't adapt to me when I didn't like the stupid childish 'homework' she was giving me, nor could she accept my lack of emotions. She used to get angry with me for not being able to give her the correct range of emotions. She wouldn't accept that I barely ever felt anything. But with my new T, I suppose I would be willing to try.
I know that I want to work on feelings of low self worth. I am having trouble motivating myself to find a new job because I don't feel good enough. Also, though my new boyfriend is being very good, making plans months in advance, being loving and respectful, I also feel like I'm waiting for it to go wrong and for him to realize that I'm too insane for him. I think I really need help with that, and with my total fear of confrontation.
Anybody have any advice on what kind of therapy I could look at?
I know CBT is an option but I tried it once and I had an almost abusive T who made things so much worse and she couldn't adapt to me when I didn't like the stupid childish 'homework' she was giving me, nor could she accept my lack of emotions. She used to get angry with me for not being able to give her the correct range of emotions. She wouldn't accept that I barely ever felt anything. But with my new T, I suppose I would be willing to try.
I know that I want to work on feelings of low self worth. I am having trouble motivating myself to find a new job because I don't feel good enough. Also, though my new boyfriend is being very good, making plans months in advance, being loving and respectful, I also feel like I'm waiting for it to go wrong and for him to realize that I'm too insane for him. I think I really need help with that, and with my total fear of confrontation.
Anybody have any advice on what kind of therapy I could look at?