I can relate to your experience, although I can only speak for myself. After something disturbing happened to me, I went black, became numb and I had no thoughts or feelings, and an inability to communicate with others. I was listless and I kept telling people 'I can't talk ...I can't talk' and it was like a deadening experience. It lasted for almost a year and during that time I tried to commit suicide..but after that took place, months went by and I met someone who seemed to comprehend what I was going through. This sort of experience happened to me twice, both after having a traumatic experience occur. I hope that you can or will seek out a compassionate therapist, even if it takes checking out a lot of practitioners. You have to believe that there is always a way out, and nowhere to go but up. What I did in response to that pain was really a cry for help because I just couldn't keep on that way...but it is not the answer. It never is in any situation. There is always a way out and persevere; don't settle for less, if that makes sense.