Sufferer No One Gets It

[Blynn]

Until tonight, I felt like my PTSD diagnosis was a joke. My fiancé shot himself in the head during an argument we were having. My 1 year old was sleeping in the next room. I was forced to see someone, I was sent to a hospital. I've honestly felt like all this was wishy washy bs until tonight. I've been putting puzzle pieces together and I've maintained an amazing self until tonight. My boyfriend knows all about my past and I haven't experienced to much till we got together. I think he enjoys watching me break. I had a panic attack. Full on, WTF I can't breathe. Very out of character... I just feel so out of control of my own emotions which is just not me... Is that normal? It's been three years sense my fiancé had his moment of stupidity I thought I was home free... Guess I'm not as tough as I thought

 

[Bedbug]

Welcome to the forum, @Blynn. That is such an awful experience to have been through. I am not surprised it is still affecting you now. You are certainly not alone in what you are thinking and feeling. You will find a great deal of advice and support on here. If you read through some of the articles and older threads you will start to understand that you are "normal" for someone with PTSD, but also that you can get better.

I think he enjoys watching me break.

What did you mean by this?

 

[Deleted member 1860]

I'm confused. If you're just now experiencing symptoms, how were you diagnosed? Symptoms of PTSD encompass much more than you've mentioned.

 

[intothelight]

Hi Blynn,

Welcome to MyPTSD forum!

Panic attacks can be horrible experiences and one way to help to manage them is to first identify the trigger. Some of the most severe PTSD symptoms don't show up until a person is triggered. You might want to work with your therapist during this process. Also take the time to talk to your boyfriend about how you perceive his response to your discomfort. Also, don't be hard on yourself for responding as you do, as it is not a sign of weakness, but of just being human.

Take care.

Debbie

 

[K.P]

Until tonight, I felt like my PTSD diagnosis was a joke. My fiancé shot himself in the head during an arg...

Took 4 years for me to see effects. Sometimes it just catches up to you