No one truly cares

[Punky143]

If they did, then why do I have to practically hunt people down for simple answers? I am aware of the burn out factor since way back when I nicely destroyed relationships. I was in the midst of a bad borderline lifestyle. This time, now with did etc I do the opposite, I don't want to involve others in the mess called life. But, I'd truly like a friend who is there through thick and thin but I don't. If for those I might consider a friend, they don't want to hear the same stuff all the time. I don't know what I'm trying to say but I feel like I'm nothing, no one so I enjoy doing things alone...

 

[Friday]

So it sounds like you're figuring out what you need to do in order to be a good friend?

First go was too much = Burn out.
Second go was too little / pushing people away / isolation = Absence.

So you've tried both extremes and they don't suit you, now looking at making another go, somewhere more towards the middle?

 

[ladee]

I like what Friday said. We have to be a friend to have friends.
What does you being a friend look like to you? Sometimes that's a good place to start.
We are here for you but I know it's not the same.
Just having someone to go get a coffee with and just talk and laugh.
Sending insight for you to start making friends. This PTSD is lonely enough without having someone in our real life.

 

[Punky143]

I like solidarity for now. So I can try and figure out myself what's going on and why. I'm very private when it comes to my counseling. My husband is not a believer that mental health even exists. Throw in everyone else I hear and it leaves me to believe the world is messed up

 

[ladee]

The world is messed up. That is valid. But there are good people in the world and many many of them right here on this forum.
I am sorry your husband is not supportive, but we can be.
Just letting you know we are here for you. To listen and we do understand.
Hope you join us if you choose. We arent going anywhere!
Still glad you reached out.
No pressure!

 

[Supervixn]

Ugh I get it... It's lonely having this thing...

So many people just don't get it. If you need a listening ear I'm here. Don't hesitate to reach out.

 

[Punky143]

Thank you☺