Normal Self Is Stone Faced

[zoie33]

I am quite aware that my normal self is always stone faced. My T says he has a hard time reading me. My best friends admit that they see a glimpse of a smile once in awhile, i usually exptess humor through verbal sarcasm and i have them in stitches much of the time but it is always delivered with no facial expression. They say I am pretty good at showing anger too but again mainly through my words. This is the extent of my emotional gamut.
I have just recently been aware of inner parts and I am starting to think that the only times I actually break free of my stone face self is when I dissociate and another part comes out.
Can anyone else relate?

 

[walter mitty]

Yup! Often I find myself unconsciously putting out physical cues that intentionally misdirected as well. I don't really think about it but I'd someone is making me really uncomfortable I exude calm and serenity. Done it all my life.

 

[Muted]

No one has ever told me that in that way, but I work hard especially at work to conceal my feelings and reactions especially negative ones. Sometimes I think when my parts are out they are way more free and not afraid to speak or show emotion. I'm not sure how I am when I disassociate, because I can't always remember conversations except bits and pieces sometimes.

Interesting topic, this is something I hadn't really thought about before.

 

[Glo809]

Greetings

Most of the time I keep in the fringe of the conversation, but sometimes I have input and thay listen, they understand that when I speak up, it's worth it

G

 

[WishfulThinking123]

I can really relate....I am so guarded and shut down/disassociated from situations sometimes that no one can read me. Even if someone hurts me emotionally inside my sirens are going off shut down/disassociate/don't trust but on the outside I will show no emotion and they will never be able to read me.