Agh. I guess this is just a vent. I'm SO frustrated! As you all know by now, I'm sure, my cat was diagnosed with diabetes this month and wracked up $500 worth of vet bills. Now, I'm on disability, I don't have that amount stashed away for a rainy day and I don't have a support system I can bum money off of either. So I've been working really hard this last week on this site where I can work or not work, they don't care, they just get a commission from what I make off of clients. Well, I had a week to work and try to earn the $500 back.
I've only ever been late with rent 1 time and that was 1 day late. I paid what I had one day, when I got paid the next day, I went back and dropped off the rent. My landlord is a pretty understanding guy - he lives with his mom and sister and they're both on disability with social phobias, so he's been really cool with us. But in the morning I'm going to have to call and explain the situation and let him know that I'm only gonna be able to do partial this month, but next month can pay the regular, the remaining, plus whatever fees he wants to apply. Hopefully he'll be cool with that. If not, I guess we're finding a new place to live. But the idea of moving just kills me. We've moved 5 times in the last 2 years and I'm TIRED of it. On the upside, we've been here a year and I still haven't unpacked all the way, so I wouldn't have to do a lot of packing.
The most frustrating part is that we should be in an apartment somewhere paying less than what we are, but when we moved in my fiance was working so we had 2 incomes. He had to quit because the PTSD.
Anyways, so I told my fiance tonight that we probably are going to have to make payment arrangements with the landlord and he just about lost it. He's been doing so badly... I kind of expected it to go worse, but really, it was bad enough. I feel like such a failure.
So tomorrow, I have to call the landlord on the phone, and I'm scared of phones, I'm also scared of the landlord, to tell him something bad that he may react badly to, and I'm going to have to deal with the brunt of whatever anger/frustration/irritation he has as a result, and then I have to keep my gumption up to keep working to pay the difference. My nerves are absolutely fried and I still have to function.
Okay, that's enough ranting.
I've only ever been late with rent 1 time and that was 1 day late. I paid what I had one day, when I got paid the next day, I went back and dropped off the rent. My landlord is a pretty understanding guy - he lives with his mom and sister and they're both on disability with social phobias, so he's been really cool with us. But in the morning I'm going to have to call and explain the situation and let him know that I'm only gonna be able to do partial this month, but next month can pay the regular, the remaining, plus whatever fees he wants to apply. Hopefully he'll be cool with that. If not, I guess we're finding a new place to live. But the idea of moving just kills me. We've moved 5 times in the last 2 years and I'm TIRED of it. On the upside, we've been here a year and I still haven't unpacked all the way, so I wouldn't have to do a lot of packing.
The most frustrating part is that we should be in an apartment somewhere paying less than what we are, but when we moved in my fiance was working so we had 2 incomes. He had to quit because the PTSD.
Anyways, so I told my fiance tonight that we probably are going to have to make payment arrangements with the landlord and he just about lost it. He's been doing so badly... I kind of expected it to go worse, but really, it was bad enough. I feel like such a failure.
So tomorrow, I have to call the landlord on the phone, and I'm scared of phones, I'm also scared of the landlord, to tell him something bad that he may react badly to, and I'm going to have to deal with the brunt of whatever anger/frustration/irritation he has as a result, and then I have to keep my gumption up to keep working to pay the difference. My nerves are absolutely fried and I still have to function.
Okay, that's enough ranting.
