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I've been unemployed now for a month. I quit right before everyone was sent home to work and the job I had lined up, which was seasonal, has been delayed. It's possible the project I was hired for will fall through; it depends on whether students are tested at the end of this school year.
One thing I finally realized is that I canNOT work in an office. I don't manage the relationships well and I just don't like it. This new job would have been different in that the only time permitted to talk with a co-worker is on break or at lunch. Since it involves testing, everything is very strictly controlled - I have done this job before and really liked it because I can do the work and leave it there when I go home. Also, to work there, you have to have at least a 4-year degree and everyone is sooo professional.
Because this job may not work out, I've been thinking about finding other work and looking some online to see what is available.
I'm not finding anything I feel like I am in the least bit qualified for. I've seen a couple of remote positions (which is preferable) that I *almost* qualify for - and I may do some online training to help me get there - but I'm starting to...hm, not quite panic, but definitely feel a lot more anxiety.
The other thing? I don't want to work. It's not a matter of being lazy. It's the anxiety and the knowing how I am when I have to be under people and the depression that always gets worse when I'm working. I'm looking a remote jobs and planning to finish building a small business, but I'm so afraid I won't make enough to live on.
I don't regret quitting (at all), but I'm starting to worry about moving forward.
One thing I finally realized is that I canNOT work in an office. I don't manage the relationships well and I just don't like it. This new job would have been different in that the only time permitted to talk with a co-worker is on break or at lunch. Since it involves testing, everything is very strictly controlled - I have done this job before and really liked it because I can do the work and leave it there when I go home. Also, to work there, you have to have at least a 4-year degree and everyone is sooo professional.
Because this job may not work out, I've been thinking about finding other work and looking some online to see what is available.
I'm not finding anything I feel like I am in the least bit qualified for. I've seen a couple of remote positions (which is preferable) that I *almost* qualify for - and I may do some online training to help me get there - but I'm starting to...hm, not quite panic, but definitely feel a lot more anxiety.
The other thing? I don't want to work. It's not a matter of being lazy. It's the anxiety and the knowing how I am when I have to be under people and the depression that always gets worse when I'm working. I'm looking a remote jobs and planning to finish building a small business, but I'm so afraid I won't make enough to live on.
I don't regret quitting (at all), but I'm starting to worry about moving forward.