Not Making Plans But ...

[PainX2]

I find myself so easily overwhelmed these days. Everything seems to set me off crying. I'm definitely not as emotional as I was a few weeks ago but I'm certainly still not myself. I'm not sure of anything anymore. I've told my husband and family dr about my sense that "it would be just easier..." type thoughts and I was put on Cymbalta. I've been on it 2 weeks now and I'm not sure if its doing anything yet. I wouldn't say anything has really changed with my thoughts... when something bad happens I still get those thoughts that I just don't want to fight anymore.

Today my Dr told me that if it doesn't get any better ... or in fact I start making some plans ... that she wants me to check into the psych ward at the hospital. :( I never thought I'd ever hear a doctor tell me that. That alone was depressing. Just knowing that I'm so low that I'm scaring others around me into being worried about me to that point.

I just want to feel normal again. Whatever normal means to me now.

 

[changed]

PainX2, im in a similar kinda situation. I know what you mean by the thought of being hospitalized being depressing by itself!

I hope you get through things and find whats best for you.

Hugs
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[Monarch]

I don't like the hospital either but would you rather check yourself in voluntarily or OD on meds, spend 2 days in ICU and five days in the psych. ward on a hold like I did? I think the better choice is to check yourself in, take a rest from the outside stressors and get your shit together, easier when you make the choice to do it rather than being put there.