Not Sure How To Hold On

[Rob_Dog19]

The past month has thrown so much my way that I just don't know how to handle life anymore. I wish I knew the one thing that I could do to keep my head afloat, but it's so hard. My boyfriend decided it was time to take a break after we got into a fight and I asked him to not talk to me...we've had that sort of fight before, but this time he took me seriously and will barely acknowledge that i exist anymore. I feel like I've lost a chunk of my heart, and I don't know how to get it back.
It doesn't help that he got me pregnant and then got scared so he recoiled from our relationship. I miscarried, another huge heartbreak, but he still was emotionally distant after the pregnancy. I'm trying to mourn the loss of my unborn child while dealing with the loss of JT, and it's proving to be too much. I talked to my T last week and even brought up my suicidal feelings, but she didn't seemed alarmed. She knows that me cutting has been a constant battle that I'm not always winning, but I don't think she understands just how lost in my own head I am. I feel like I am barely keeping my head above water and it seems there's nobody who understands what's going on in my head and how to fix it. If I could just take a break for a week to sort things out I might be able to stand life's bumps, but right now, I don't know if I'm able to cope.

 

[sbump]

Hang in there. I know you may not feel like it but you are worth it.

 

[Rob_Dog19]

Thank you. It's hard to see the light sometimes

 

[broken_one]

hang on! I know where you are after suffering the loss of 8 babies. It's truly overwhelming to suffer the loss of a baby AND PTSD. They both aggravate each other. Just take it one step at a time. Breathe in, breathe out. Take care of yourself. Eat. I know it's difficult, but in time it does get easier. And you don't really need to be dealing with BF drama now either.

The light is there, stay focused.

((((((((Rob_Dog19)))))))

 

[Froggie]

Linking arms with you ((((Rob-Dog19))))... lighting a candle for you.

 

[BloomInWinter]

(((((Rob_Dog)))))

I'm here for you. I'm so sorry you're dealing with so much right now. That you are sharing it speaks volumes about your character.

Radical self-care time. Comfort yourself, distract yourself....do whatever helps.

It's ok to just feel lost, sometimes. But you are NOT alone in this forest.

 

[Kim]

My heart goes out to you.

 

[missd84]

Hang in there rob_dog! Like others have said, you are not alone. I am so sorry that you are going through a lot right now. I heard a really good quote that put some things in perspective for me: However long the night, dawn will break. There is light at the end of all this. I will be praying for you!