Sufferer Not To Sure But I'll Give It A Try.

[Leilawanwan]

I've had PTSD. Well my psychologist diagnosed me with PTSD maybe a little over a yet ago. At first, it never really phased me. I was drinking and drugging allot so I couldn't really feel my emotions since I was bottling them up. I have recently been sober for maybe 3 months. And things have never been worst and better at the same time my anxiety is thru the roof. I've had my first panic attacks and my dreams have gotten so scary and real. Sometimes i just can't handle this. My thought get so scary. Like imaging that I'm going to kill myself. I hate it. Tonight, I was scared. I was thinking of how lonely I was. And all that caused my PTSD, I just couldn't get myself to become even a little bit tired and go to sleep. I cleaned my room. And went on google and found this site. I'm a bit relieved. I'm only 20. But my therapist tells me I have really bad PTSD, I'm sad :( I just wanna be normal .... I hope there's no mean people on here lol I could go on forever and I'm not proof reading this, I could care less right now.

 

[intothelight]

Welcome!

There is a lot of good information here and a lot of support. I hope you find this place helpful.

 

[DissociativeJunkie]

I feel for you. It does sound like you have PTSD with a great intensity. I've been having panic attacks too, at work in fact. They are absolutely awful, so I can relate. It's really scary when you ditch the booze and drugs, and have to deal with everything you were masking and avoiding. I may never have used either, but I avoided all the same. Do you have a therapist that is helping you? No one here is going to be mean to you. :) We're all scared as well I think. Lol. Its okay to be yourself and feel crazy. As someone who legitimately lost their sanity for a time, I can understand your feelings. You will find a lot of support here. You're not alone. You're going to be okay. :)