Great thread. I really needed to read this today.
I just finished trying to convey to another friend on line about why I don't like people much and why I self-isolate, and I'm not sure if she gets it, but she works in the mental health field, and rape crisis so it's probably something she has heard plenty of times before, but she likes people so I don't think she ever could really understand.
The funny thing is I realized I prefered animals to people long before I was assaulted, though I suppose the emotional abuse was always there, so...
thanks to everyone here for their input, it really helped me. I've even had one lady I lived with who I think was traumatized but she distanced herself from me and was smoking weed a lot, and another 'friend', think of me as petty, and I'm sure she thought I had an easy life compared to hers (my other friend actually got real nasty at me at one stage as she was sure I had such an easy life, without even bothering to find out what was going on for me or what I was dealing with), but I was in so much pain at the time I could hardly bear it, and that pain has been with me for years. I did not realize a human being could carry around that much pain and still exist, especially being ongoing...so you never know who around you is suffering to the extent or worse than you are, though their lives may appear to be easy.
I just finished trying to convey to another friend on line about why I don't like people much and why I self-isolate, and I'm not sure if she gets it, but she works in the mental health field, and rape crisis so it's probably something she has heard plenty of times before, but she likes people so I don't think she ever could really understand.
The funny thing is I realized I prefered animals to people long before I was assaulted, though I suppose the emotional abuse was always there, so...
thanks to everyone here for their input, it really helped me. I've even had one lady I lived with who I think was traumatized but she distanced herself from me and was smoking weed a lot, and another 'friend', think of me as petty, and I'm sure she thought I had an easy life compared to hers (my other friend actually got real nasty at me at one stage as she was sure I had such an easy life, without even bothering to find out what was going on for me or what I was dealing with), but I was in so much pain at the time I could hardly bear it, and that pain has been with me for years. I did not realize a human being could carry around that much pain and still exist, especially being ongoing...so you never know who around you is suffering to the extent or worse than you are, though their lives may appear to be easy.