Nurse 20+yrs. No Compassion Or Spine For It

[lymphomamama]

I provided private contract hospice for over 20 years. I was assaulted, raped and beaten nearly to death by a patient's adult son. After a year I went to work for the family of a good friend and was passed in his family from member to member. His last family member was my last job. I can't even I imagine going back to nursing, most every jobs require interaction with strangers and God forbid men (African American men set me off almost instantly). Disability thinks I can do it so I'm on appeal after appeal. If they could send a woman to follow me for a week there would be no question I am not fit for social interaction of any kind. I like this place cuz I can talk and no one can see me, I can't see judgement on any eyes. It's safe.

 

[jc3]

I provided private contract hospice for over 20 years. I was assaulted, raped and beaten nearly to de...

I am sorry that you have been assaulted for so long. But, thankfully you have this forum to vent in, like you said, a safe fashion. I hope that you're eventually accepted for disability because trauma can make it difficult for us to handle the workforce. Help is out there. I recommend the book "The body keeps the score" by Bessel Van Der Kolk.

 

[pixel]

This place is the opposite of judgemental: it's accepting :)

You are safe here, and accepted.

Would you consider nursing again if it was comparatively safer? ie, theatre, paediatrics, ICU or NICU. Or a women's prison, women's shelters etc.

Or are you feeling done.

 

[lymphomamama]

This place is the opposite of judgemental: it's accepting :)

You are safe here, and accepted.

Would you...

I chose not to peds because of the magnitude of heartbreak. Newborns go bad so fast and it's ripping inside. Prisons and shelters are inherently dangerous for med personnel. No, I'm just done. No more watching my friends die. No more seeing the anger ing their families, no more grief. Thought about retail but strangers walking in the door - just no. I'm too freaked at the supermarket.

 

[kath3141]

@tripitena my heart goes out to you & I am praying things work out to your satisfaction. I am an individual who has had a complicated Trauma history.....while I was recently diagnosed Im discovering I've had it for over 20 years....

....just over one year ago I experienced a similar incident as the one you described. I was assaulted by a patient I was assigned to while working on a hospital floor. It definitely knocked me for a loop....

Needless to say, I don't come here with answers, just support

 

[EveHarrington]

:hug:

 

[Friday]

The pay isn't comparable, at least not in my region (30-50 v 60-120), but would transcription be a possibility? Work from home & no patient contact? Or another Allied Health Field? Or is the whole field Nope! Not gonna touch it with a 10' pole at this point?

 

[lymphomamama]

The pay isn't comparable, at least not in my region (30-50 v 60-120), but would transcription be a possi...

I have some neurological damage,a TBI and memory issues. It seems I have always had ADD (answers so much about high school and college). I forget,that leads to stress so does transposing. I can't meet any kind of deadline because of my erratic sleep and emotional dips. So, basically, no. 2psychiatrist s and my therapist recommend I don't take on outside commitments.
Just waiting on the disability maze for now.