OCD Ocd? (obsessive compulsive disorder)

[Chava]

It makes sense that if nobody provided structure for you, that you'd create sort of your own.

I hadn't thought about the obsessional thoughts so much, but that used to be very bad for me. I obsessed about running away so much that I had to do it...to stop the obsession. I didn't actually have any plans or enough money to last long. But I just had to stop thinking about it!!! I used to obsess over things like buying ankle socks vs. knee highs...and make it a really complicated, philosophical decision. I think all of my anxiety about the truly unknown or unfelt was channeled into quirky obsessions. I still have anxiety sometimes but I channel it into movement or painting. And I can get obsessive over a painting, but finally that feels like a "normal" was to be obsessive-compulsive. I do remember to eat dinner. ;)

 

[Deleted member 34424]

Oh yes, I was born with anxiety and OCD (runs in the family with depression) and it got way worse after I was molested.

My issue is compulsive/obsessive thinking rather than physically acting out obsessions and/or compulsions... My mind is thy enemy, for real. Ugh...

The only physical one I can think of is deodorant use; I was up to 45 until I realized it and stopped myself. Now it won't go higher than 25 with each armpit. 25 is when I know I'm really anxious.