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Well.
I went back in the room with my anxieties pulling at my ankes. I sat there and sobbed inside, my fear eating away at me from the deepest parts of my past traumas. My peer to beer buddy feeling the same as me.
We connected in our pain and anger and he told me he believed in me as members here have told me so often the same thing "I believe in you Laurie" G and I agreed that we both believed in each other and we . needed to believe in ourselves as well as each other.
I did, I believed in myself and G believed in himself. In fact all twenty odd of us believed in each other and in ourselves. Twenty plus hardened ex soldiers at some point this afternoon each broke down. Tears were shed by battle hardened squaddies with no embarrassment at all. We all knew just what each other were suffering (guilt, fear, shame,anger and sadness at what we had each suffered as a result of our traumas).
We all stayed in the room, we all came out of that room changed and for the better. To say there was a massive positivity at the end is the biggest understatement I think I have ever made.
This programme has had a life changing effect on me now. I saw broken men and women on Monday evening transformed in a matter of two days into totally different people.
Thankyou all for believing in me. I probably could not have gone back in today if I did not unconciously know deep inside that people on this forum were willing me to succeed.
My future is so much clearer now.
My love to everyone here who believed that I could do this and the same love to all the guys and girls I have met on this programme. Without all of you collectively I would have failed when I so much wanted to succeed.
I went back in the room with my anxieties pulling at my ankes. I sat there and sobbed inside, my fear eating away at me from the deepest parts of my past traumas. My peer to beer buddy feeling the same as me.
We connected in our pain and anger and he told me he believed in me as members here have told me so often the same thing "I believe in you Laurie" G and I agreed that we both believed in each other and we . needed to believe in ourselves as well as each other.
I did, I believed in myself and G believed in himself. In fact all twenty odd of us believed in each other and in ourselves. Twenty plus hardened ex soldiers at some point this afternoon each broke down. Tears were shed by battle hardened squaddies with no embarrassment at all. We all knew just what each other were suffering (guilt, fear, shame,anger and sadness at what we had each suffered as a result of our traumas).
We all stayed in the room, we all came out of that room changed and for the better. To say there was a massive positivity at the end is the biggest understatement I think I have ever made.
This programme has had a life changing effect on me now. I saw broken men and women on Monday evening transformed in a matter of two days into totally different people.
Thankyou all for believing in me. I probably could not have gone back in today if I did not unconciously know deep inside that people on this forum were willing me to succeed.
My future is so much clearer now.
My love to everyone here who believed that I could do this and the same love to all the guys and girls I have met on this programme. Without all of you collectively I would have failed when I so much wanted to succeed.
