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MyPTSD Pro
So, I recently received a new knee, and have been prescribed opiate pain relief.
All of my life opiates have been a source of great upheaval and terrible nightmares. I admit, i get the jollies too, and if i didnt know better than to let it, opiates could be a drug of choice. No worries, not going to happen. Seen the end of those rides.
Like probably most if us here, i get by from day to day using learned tools and constantly monitoring my mental state, ever watchful for the slips and slides.
Opiates get me off balance, i might sway a little before I tumble but it’s for sure, once the horizon shifts i am headed for some wild rides.
The nightmares are so real and seem to come from a deep place where the sources are at once unknown and familiar, and terribly terribly brain smacking.
I am not sure when or for how long but i am getting a definite awareness that i am about to be punished for my sins.
Scared and at the same time, i know i can do this, i just wish i didn’t have to, one more time again.
Can you relate?
All of my life opiates have been a source of great upheaval and terrible nightmares. I admit, i get the jollies too, and if i didnt know better than to let it, opiates could be a drug of choice. No worries, not going to happen. Seen the end of those rides.
Like probably most if us here, i get by from day to day using learned tools and constantly monitoring my mental state, ever watchful for the slips and slides.
Opiates get me off balance, i might sway a little before I tumble but it’s for sure, once the horizon shifts i am headed for some wild rides.
The nightmares are so real and seem to come from a deep place where the sources are at once unknown and familiar, and terribly terribly brain smacking.
I am not sure when or for how long but i am getting a definite awareness that i am about to be punished for my sins.
Scared and at the same time, i know i can do this, i just wish i didn’t have to, one more time again.
Can you relate?