I am so f*cking proud! :joyful:
One year no smoking. :woot: Not one cigarette. Not half a cigarette. Not a single goddamn PUFF for exactly 365 days. I cannot believe this. Had been a very, very heavy smoker for over 10 years. :laugh:
I am gonna treat myself to a pizza for that. :sneaky: Which has become a treat, because I am also living pretty healthy in generell. From superduper extreme potato to awsome excercise 6 times a week and good food. :cool: I honestly move more in a day then back then in a month. For months now, so I consider it a formed habbit. :happy:
I have physically never felt so good, not even close. Also never liked my body so much. :p I never liked looking in the mirror before, but that has changed drastically. :roflmao:
:facepalm: I drank 4 weeks ago, 6 bottles of beer :sorry:, but that was the first time for months, and I don't plan repeating it. :stop: Already a month ago. Was a very, very ugly day. The time where I got smashed drunk 3 days a week are so done! Yeeey. Besides, 6 beers was just a starter back then. :depressed:
Next week first appointment with outpatient therapy clinic. :cautious: Early next year intensive therapy, 5 times a week, will start. Jeez! :O_o:
Aaaaaand I am also working on my project again. :tup: After stagnation I had to admit that I lost faith in the last one big time, so I started anew and having serious fun and serious progress. Much, much better work then the one I abandoned. :cp: So thats great too. I should have finished the first, but didn't. Get over it Neil Gaiman. :p Why the f*ck I ever was interested in writing epic fantasy I will never know. I never liked reading it for f*cks sake! :roflmao:
It seems for once the end of year does not coincide with the end of my sanity. :tup: The meeting at the clinic can of course change that big time, so I am scared :grumpy: but gonna do my best and deal with what happens. Such is the only way.
There was a time when life was so f*cked up, I didn't even realize I had hit rock bottom. Now, looking back, being able to point at a certain time, a very very long time, and being able to say: "Those were the worst of times." is a very empowering thing. I don't think I will ever let them happen again. I think I am no longer able to.
I have learned my lessons.
One year no smoking. :woot: Not one cigarette. Not half a cigarette. Not a single goddamn PUFF for exactly 365 days. I cannot believe this. Had been a very, very heavy smoker for over 10 years. :laugh:
I am gonna treat myself to a pizza for that. :sneaky: Which has become a treat, because I am also living pretty healthy in generell. From superduper extreme potato to awsome excercise 6 times a week and good food. :cool: I honestly move more in a day then back then in a month. For months now, so I consider it a formed habbit. :happy:
I have physically never felt so good, not even close. Also never liked my body so much. :p I never liked looking in the mirror before, but that has changed drastically. :roflmao:
:facepalm: I drank 4 weeks ago, 6 bottles of beer :sorry:, but that was the first time for months, and I don't plan repeating it. :stop: Already a month ago. Was a very, very ugly day. The time where I got smashed drunk 3 days a week are so done! Yeeey. Besides, 6 beers was just a starter back then. :depressed:
Next week first appointment with outpatient therapy clinic. :cautious: Early next year intensive therapy, 5 times a week, will start. Jeez! :O_o:
Aaaaaand I am also working on my project again. :tup: After stagnation I had to admit that I lost faith in the last one big time, so I started anew and having serious fun and serious progress. Much, much better work then the one I abandoned. :cp: So thats great too. I should have finished the first, but didn't. Get over it Neil Gaiman. :p Why the f*ck I ever was interested in writing epic fantasy I will never know. I never liked reading it for f*cks sake! :roflmao:
It seems for once the end of year does not coincide with the end of my sanity. :tup: The meeting at the clinic can of course change that big time, so I am scared :grumpy: but gonna do my best and deal with what happens. Such is the only way.
There was a time when life was so f*cked up, I didn't even realize I had hit rock bottom. Now, looking back, being able to point at a certain time, a very very long time, and being able to say: "Those were the worst of times." is a very empowering thing. I don't think I will ever let them happen again. I think I am no longer able to.
I have learned my lessons.
