Overwhelming feelings and distorted thinking

[Pauline]

Hi i don't normally post on here but I've been having these overwhelming feelings all over my body that I was harmed really badly by someone or something like sexual abuse or just someone or something happened to me that was really harmful before my actual trauma happened. I then had strange images of my dad harming me or a feeling of someone else damaging me all over I know that sounds f*cked up because I absolutely love my parents to pieces and feel extremely safe with them but why is this happening in my body? These feelings make me shake all over and I feel it all in my arms and every where

My previous main trauma was that I lost my memory after not being able to breathe in a classroom for three hours due to my heart condition when I was a teenager and afterward I could only recognise peoples faces but not know who they were family friends and me I also had child regression and still have I was also bullied at school badly.

I just wanted to know why am I getting these feelings it's really disturbing me thinking that something or someone really harmed me so badly and it's making me cry because I love my family to pieces I really don't know what is going on with my body and why it's feeling this way Or why I'm thinking of my dad this way please can someone help me if possible

 

[flowerapple]

Honestly I don't know what to say pertaining to what you are feeling, but it sounds like you are feeling quite disturbed. I know after I was assaulted I wasn't living with my dad and then when I moved to live with him I started to fear that he might do the same thing and I would dream and see it happening in my head. I feel awful because of the feelings itself and because I was thinking and imagining that. But eventually it just kind of went away as I hanged out with him. I mean you seem sure that nothing did happen and I don't know you're past so I can't comment on whether it did or did happen. Try to do some breathing and grounding techniques to calm yourself.If you want more help just ask. Im not sure if this was helpful or not.