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Hi everyone,
I'm new to this group and just read through all the threads on this forum...it makes me feel better that I'm not alone as a carer. It was a rough couple of weeks with my boyfriend and finally he was admitted into a PTSD clinic. He was in the military for 13 years...he was a Marine Recon and then went into the Army as a Ranger instructor and was training to go Delta when he broke his back when his parachute didn't open and he fell 1,200 feet and landed on an Army ambulance. Over his 13 years he saw VERY horrible things and did things that he feels guilty about, I look at it as it was something he had to do, but then I feel bad because I've never had to deal with those things. Then what threw him over the edge was the Anniversary of the death of the SGT that saved his life in Ruwanda. And one day he spent the whole day in bed crying and punching the pillow screaming "it's not fair"...I have to admit I didn't know what to do, I just sat with him and cried. All of this have sent me into a depression and having panic attacks, now I'm seeing a therapist. I've never had to deal with this type of situation, but no question I will stick next to my hero and a hero is what he is.
He will be in the program for at least a month, but I can finally go and visit him this weekend. I know this is a good thing for him, but MAN I'm having my own issues now. Before he went in he told me all of the things he's been holding back from everyone and I couldn't stop crying...I don't know how he repressed those things for such a long time. In the past he has pushed everyone away and have lost two wives due to this, but for some reason I guess I was the one that he could trust and I appreciate that so much.
Any other carers go through their own issues with their health due to being with a PTSD sufferer?
I'm new to this group and just read through all the threads on this forum...it makes me feel better that I'm not alone as a carer. It was a rough couple of weeks with my boyfriend and finally he was admitted into a PTSD clinic. He was in the military for 13 years...he was a Marine Recon and then went into the Army as a Ranger instructor and was training to go Delta when he broke his back when his parachute didn't open and he fell 1,200 feet and landed on an Army ambulance. Over his 13 years he saw VERY horrible things and did things that he feels guilty about, I look at it as it was something he had to do, but then I feel bad because I've never had to deal with those things. Then what threw him over the edge was the Anniversary of the death of the SGT that saved his life in Ruwanda. And one day he spent the whole day in bed crying and punching the pillow screaming "it's not fair"...I have to admit I didn't know what to do, I just sat with him and cried. All of this have sent me into a depression and having panic attacks, now I'm seeing a therapist. I've never had to deal with this type of situation, but no question I will stick next to my hero and a hero is what he is.
He will be in the program for at least a month, but I can finally go and visit him this weekend. I know this is a good thing for him, but MAN I'm having my own issues now. Before he went in he told me all of the things he's been holding back from everyone and I couldn't stop crying...I don't know how he repressed those things for such a long time. In the past he has pushed everyone away and have lost two wives due to this, but for some reason I guess I was the one that he could trust and I appreciate that so much.
Any other carers go through their own issues with their health due to being with a PTSD sufferer?
