So some points about paranoia...
Usually helps me, in absence of being able to ask other people for advice, to break it down to likelihoods and action plans. Plan A, B, C, D, E, F. (A to follow, Backup, Cooperation & Communication I need, Destroying who's making me paranoid & Distractions, gaining time / space / mislead off track, Exit the situations altogether & plans attaching to that, Fubar altogether and what to do with it.)
Just because when IN paranoia roll, thinking up something creative will likely be impossible, and logically solid flew outta the window. The less plans needed, the more likely I find one to stick to & pieces from others to improvise from.
Also bc I need eventualities *DOWN *. Big deal. As that I even kicked to paranoia? Is because uncertainties got too much. So nope, fine details and finessing that shit will wait :p Sticking to what's simplest.
Likelihoods:
Whichever scenario I'm on, is it likely it:
A) Will go down
B) Will go down -that way-
C) Will go down that way -that fast-?
Which itself calms me down.
As that is sooo many factors & time I can use, interlude between acts. During which I can change the course. Or someone or something else does.
Sooo many times something totally dumb helped me, and equally dumb doomed me.
Then, eventualities.
Okay, fine, this stranger is gonna butcher me broad daylight for existing -- oops.
That means the stranger needs to worry about so many things. I got to worry about just not being murdered, but they need to worry about the hit, bystanders, panic of crowds, panic of crowds if they got the thing wrong, not being smothered by the masses, not even starting on law enforcement and I'm not even at THAT point, by the time they're so loud & causing wide panic & not off the scene both how to get off that scene safely and not be linked to it by something small they didn't think of, as accidents are dumbass f*ckers...
That doesn't even touch on their own other problems. Someone not liking them / needing them not be the evidence itself / conflicting interests.
Uuh. Oh. Too much troubles. Way easier to jump to other thought... Ok. I'm not dead for walking the street and Being Me. It's not personal :P
Not personal can be good. Not personal takes other layer of too hot emotions off.
Leaving the Paranoia For Life lair examples...
Oh. So it's about something else.
Which means it will wait. ;)
Gives me time. As things don't usually turn so hot for things like forgotten water bill and doc appointment one botched.
People reschedule.
Meaning I need to calm down, breathe, and decide to worry about things some other moment.
Again, things gained to advantage = calm.
Other kinda paranoia, like Someone knows too much about me / mine...
And then what? ;)
Mine ain't babies. They can take care of themselves. Hell, even the actually babies would. They yell so well city sirens can be envious. Harder to do untoward shit with that noise.
Plus sooo many steps between knowing anything, and acting on it.
And the drag verifying things, calling them in, coordinating moves is. It's not smooth & simplico.
So that again means sooo much time to kick my worries to the curb and just breathe.
Paranoia, also, means I'm not as f*cked as I think.
Truly effed there'd be neither space nor time to BE paranoid.
I'd know rather fast.
Things like that.
Break the issue down.
Test it against reality the most you can.
Ask up for concretes that spin you, until they don't as much.
Loneliness is more pal of paranoia upping it, than whatever is causing paranoia itself.
And... It's a feeling.
Not a reality.
Don't do anything drastic, acting on that feeling.
Way more lethal are *own actions* outta paranoia...
Than anyone else that sparked it.
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Probably more to say, I just need more words.
