Physical Attacks W/o The Emotions

[Wen]

I was wondering if others had this issue too. All day (and others in the past) I have been experience a horrible tickle/fear in my chest. It's like my whole body is reacting to something terrifying, frightening of life threatening yet I don't have that actual emotions. (Does this make sense?) I squirm all day and literally feel like something is inside of me moving around tickling me in a negative way. I have tried relaxing, meditations, distractions... etc and some help but only briefly and it's back. I can't even judge how strong it will get because it comes in unpredictable waves. Is this also normal for PTSD? I'm sure something must of triggered it but it had to have been unconsciously since I can't consciously think of anything that would spark it.

Have any other gone thru this and if so did you find ways to make it stop? I've even taken 2 Xanax but it still hasn't helped. Any advice, thoughts, options would be very welcome!

 

[ghotiff]

How does your heart feel, is it beating faster than normal, or can you feel your heartbeat more than normal?

 

[open eyes]

I've had these a few times before. It's like your body has a panic attack but your mind hasn't caught up yet & you can't identify a trigger or even a feeling associated with it. I was never able to find a way of coping with it except for just letting it take its course, sorry :(

As for whether it's normal or not, there really is no normal for PTSD. Everyone has their own symptoms, but they all tie back to the same thing.

 

[Wen]

@ghotiff - to be honest I never really checked my heart rate but that's probably because it doesn't feel like it effects it. It's just the horrible tickling inside. And it can happen in various sections of my chest/back area or encompass everywhere. No matter what it just feel like inner torture. A couple of years ago when I felt it up and down my spine, it felt like a ghost was reaching in me and tickling me. Not knowing it was related to PTSD/anxiety had me rationalizing these occurrences in the most irrational (bizarre) ways.

Thanks @open eyes for sharing. If there was a trigger I could identify with I believe it would help (just because I understand why). That's my biggest issue, not knowing why or understanding what's going on. I guess I want to have logical reasons for things to happen and in the last 3 years I've been plagued with events that I just don't understand and has left me very confused.

Sorry to be vague but I've been going thru many issues with my husband (on top of my past traumas) and to write about it would have me typing for hours. But it has got me thinking now and I believe I'm finding a connection... maybe :O_o:. We're in marriage and individual counseling now so I will try to explore this with them. In some ways I'm like a 2 year old always asking "WHY?":laugh: