Physical Damage/ongoing Problems Due To Sra

[Malah]

For some reason, I find it easier to start with the medical fallout before devling into the discussions with my T about this stuff.

Something I did was write down dot points of the physical issues for my T, and end it with "Can you please write a note for my general practitioner about the types of medical treatment I should be looking at?"

My T wrote that down, and I was able to just hand that note to my GP, again without having to say anything out loud.

Doing it that way, my GP was able to help me out with the medical issues that needed addressing more urgently, without me having to start actually discussing it as such. It doesn't deal with the psychological consequences at all, but knowing that I was at least getting in control of the physical issues was actually a huge relief.

Even doing it that way, it wasn't easy. But for me, it was a way to start dealing with it that was somehow easier. And starting to regain control of my body and my life was actually a huge step.

Maybe that might be more confronting. But letting your GP know gives you information. You don't have to act on it straight away, but for me, even just the information was a relief to have.

Thoughts are with you. You're not alone. And my guess is that most T's would know that this is a particularly difficult issue to raise. Take your time, and definitely keep reaching out here for support.

 

[Uzo]

The pain is really bad at the moment. I'm trying to work out how much of it is actually the physical damage and how much of it is because I've been thinking (and writing) about it.

I've tried writing things down to try and share with therapist, but I keep getting stuck. I can't even seem to put down on paper what I wrote in the first post.

I don't want to share the actual post with her as I'm not comfortable with that.

I've taken pain relief and it's had little effect.

I'm currently crying over the damage that's been done to me. I hate my body.

I've been unable to urinate for quite a while now, to the point that my stomach is very painful. I feel unable to speak to the nurse about it, as I know they'll panic and try and suggest a hospital trip

 

[Kebul]

Sweetie, calm down a bit. You dont have to share it right now. If you arent comfortable you arent comfortable. Dont spin yourself out of control about it. It does need to be adised to her but like you said, your alters advised her more then what you have.

If you arent comfortable with the entire first post, copy and paste what you arent into a word doc and print that?

 

[Vutib]

It does need to be adised to her but like you said, your alters advised her more then what you have.

It doesnt need to be advised to her right this sec i meant

 

[Ofi]

Sweetie, calm down a bit. You dont have to share it right now. If you arent comfortable you arent comfortable. Dont s...

I've stopped trying to write things for now. I've got til Tuesday til I see her.

I'm just really struggling with the pain right now.

I'm at a loss as what to do. I'm currently curled up crying, trying to hide it from staff here.

 

[Ofod]

I'm at a loss as what to do. I'm currently curled up crying, trying to hide it from staff here.

Are you in a hospital or inpatient? I know you dont want to go into the hospital and the humiliation of telling a doctor but you need to urinate and maybe there are medical issues too?

Sit on the toilet and lightly tun the water so it has a small steady stream hitting the drain elbow to make the sound you need. That helps me.

Sweetie, if you cant go soon, you need to let the staff know. That's dangerous!

 

[Tibaluz]

Inpatient therapy unit

It's not unusual for me to go a few days with passing little to no urine.

There's physical damage that stops it. I've tried the tap thing in the past. My only real option would be catheters (either regular temporary or a permanent one) I couldn't cope with that

 

[Orevu]

Im sure, thats why i didnt mention cathieters. I have physical damage on my urithrea as well. Its a bit miss formed, scar tissue is on it, and due to caths in the past i have scar tissues inside so i get the physical thing.

And i take meds that cause urine retention so it makes it harder.

So far ive done the water and the "shh" sound to myself and it has worked but ice gone a few days and not gone. It hurts and nothing helps that hurt. Im so sorry you are dealing with it! :hug:

 

[Ipi]

I can understand catheters are really, really difficult, but I hope you reconsider as not passing for so long could be pretty dangerous. Sending hugs if that's okay.

 

[Cuzeh]

Would sitting in a warm tub of water help relax your body a little?
Perhaps a warm compress?
a hot water bottle?

i'm saddened by your suffering:(

 

[Zizopu]

I can't cope with baths and I don't like being wet due to other things they did to me.

I've managed to pass some urine this morning, although I haven't managed to empty my bladder.

I'm in a little less pain, it's just the memories and psychological side that's even worse!

Thanks for all of your replies

 

[Bihiz]

I'm glad you were able to urinate, at least a little.

And - I know it sounds like a rock and a hard place - but, you do have a choice about how to manage the pain. Letting your therapist in feels impossible in your head, I hear you. But it's the only way you will be able to start releasing the memories, and the pain of what's in your brain. Once you start doing that, it will become easier to manage your body.

You will start to get relief, but you are going to have to work on it with your therapist. There's no way around it. I wish there was.

I know you think you can't, but you can. You've already lived through so much worse, I promise.