Please Be Honest So That I Can Be, Too

[Doloz]

Oh and I never said the OP wasn't "really assaulted" of course she was.

 

[Zoriv]

Sweets, it's REEEEEEEALLY common for rape victims to completely alter what happened, so that they can _____________ (live with themselves, seek medical treatment, not be attacked (verbally, emotionally, physically) further -like with parents, spouse, etc.-, be treated in a certain way (respectfully, compassionately, angrily even), talk about it composed, lay appropriate blame (aka the other person) especially when our own bias tends the other way.

It's all part of the self-protection thing.
Brains do wacky wacky things.

People who work "in the field" EXPECT the story to change.

It's one of the hard things for cops, because they know the person in front of them was raped or assaulted... But they also know that most of the time... They're either not getting the whole story, or they're getting the "pretty" version. Most of the cops I know hold off on finalizing those reports for just that reason.

A therapist, who has ANY experience with sexual assault or rape?
They're there to help you.
And they should know how freaking common this is.
And they should be able to help you look at EVERY detail, no matter how much you want "that" part not to have happened (I know, right? Why our brains decide to X out this piece, but not that -ya know- huge piece is a pain in the ass) AS you are able to.

A starting point:

"Can you help me figure out why I described the assault happening the way I did last week, when it's only half true?"

________

In my "pretty" version, my friends came & got me out.
They didn't.
My own stuff:
- I needed other people witnessing it to make it "legitimate" in my head
- I needed to feel valued