Please Tell Me It Gets Better, I'm Struggling To Believe

[gigi2690]

I have panic attacks almost daily. About 3 out of 4 of those panic attacks cause migraines that go anywhere from 8-15 hours. I'm on medical leave from college; I spend over half the time in bed. I don't know how to relax. I can do it for hours at a time sure, with candles and incense and music, but how can I relax when I'm triggering?

How can I even attempt to tell myself to breathe if my mind is in the past? I don't know how to do it. I don't know where to start. I'm learning to know what I'm feeling and to sometimes communicate it... but that's a long way from controlling it.

I just don't know how much longer I can go like this, I don't know how much faith I have. It's never been my strong suit.

Just, is there anyone out there for whom it's getting a little easier?

perpetually spiraling,
gigi

 

[Deleted member 1860]

Yes, things get better with time. So cliché, I know, but it's true.

I don't have a lot of encouragement to lend ATM, as I'm cycling down, but overall things have gotten better for me when I look at where I've come from.

Sorry for the less than stellar grammar. My communication skills falter when I've been triggered, and I had a bad episode earlier today.

Just know you're not alone.

Hugs.

 

[Lionheart]

Gigi,

Over time and with lots of therapy, medication, support and encouragement....All of my PTSD symptoms have decreased in intensity and frequency.....So Yes, it can and does get a lot better. (You may want to remind yourself often that it can and does get better because it can be hard to remember that when the symptoms flare-up).

LH

 

[maddog]

Gigi, it's good to hear from you, I'd been wondering where you have been, but sadly now I know.

So sorry to hear things are so tough for you right now, I really am. Afraid I don't have a lot of advice, struggling myself badly right now. I know this may sound a little simplistic, but have you ruled out some physiological cause for your migraines? Does medication help at the time?

Please take care of yourself.

Maddog

 

[chw52]

Gigi,

I can tell you that it has gotten better for me. I still have symptoms, however, they don't control huge portions of my life anymore. Belief in yourself, and the determination to see results will go a long way in this fight. I hope this helps you.

 

[Sandra]

I remember going through a lot of turmoil about 12 years ago. I was misdiagnosed with my kidney disease. And the insurance gave me such a hard time about the claim. But the claim was put in as my very bad back. I never had problems with my kidneys before so why would I think that. And the insurance never paid me for about 8 months. Needless to say everything bounced many times since I didn't have any income at the time. And almost had my house repossessed by the bank. Thankfully I had someone lend me some money so I wouldn't lose my house. So when they figured out it was a Dr. error that overdosed my calcium medication which is what damaged both of my kidneys.

Then when I went for the ultrasound on the kidneys they found massive cysts on my ovaries. So they booked me for the operation to remove the ovaries. And at that time there was a world wide shortage on the calcium medication I have to take. Then they were going to cancel the operation due to the shortage. Then I find out the drug screwed up and it was only the lower dosage there was a shortage on not the higher dosage which is what I take. Anyhow it was the endocrinologist that found the kidney problem. He adjusted my medication to what it was supposed to be at. Then the Dr. that screwed up had since retired and a new jerk took over. I went to see him and told him what the endocrinologist had found with the kidneys. He said to me "how do I know you aren't lying to me when I haven't seen the paperwork yet". Needless to say I told him to shove his attitude and his business up his ass and walked out and never saw him again and found a new Dr. then. When the problem was found the kidneys were at about 25% functioning. And when the medication was adjusted the kidneys did improve. They went up to about 62% but never went back to 100%.

Plus I was dealing with the PTSD and the depression from my thyroid disease.

Needless to say I would like to forget that year.

Anyhow the bottom line is if I could get through all of this, then you can too.