Positive Emotions

[bright future28]

well what can i say don't know what happened at counselling today but its like a whole new person has emerged! i feel like a butterfly emerging for the first time, a snail peeking out of its shell like the smoke screen has gone the shield taken off just liberated and excited at the same time. The creative side of me that was once there as a child is emerging again im starting to write poetry once again and let out my emotion this way and through drawing. Im feeling more confident walking with my head held high the shame feeling like its disintegrating bit by bit. feeling like im an exploding bottle letting out emotion that has been frozen inside for so long and is exciting but nervewracking at the same time. Even me changing my profile picture to myself is a big thing for me as i wouldnt of had the courage to do so before. I feel as though i have enough adrenaline to run a marathon! Please to anyone who is considering counselling give it a go i was hesitant for years but so glad i did as im letting go of so much emotions i have held in for so long and it really is helping. Only do it when you are ready though as i have engaged all my energy into it which i wouldnt have felt ready to before. Remember we are strong survivors not victums and I know life will not always be plainsailing but we will get there and get back to that person we once were. Belive in yourself love yourself be positive and hope this has enspired anyone to seek help

 

[The Albatross]

Very happy for you Bright Future, and nice to "see YOU". Congratulations on reconnecting with your creative side. I still hobble that one myself, unless it's for a charity auction which is something I could do better about. Glad too, you wrote it down, so the moment will be available for you if/should you need to reconnect with it.

 

[bright future28]

Thank you for your kind words. I hope you fully reconnect with that side of yourself also. I agree writing this down will be a big help when im having a bad day and reading the positive words will remind me there is light at the end of the tunnel :) x

 

[bright future28]

Also hope it helps others to remind them there is hope for all of us x

 

[Born to Run]

Wow it is amazing to read this for two reasons; first I am really glad for you and what you achieved, and second the exact same stuff is happening to me since therapy last Friday. To phrase it in therapeutic terms as you say you dont know what happened, this is what they call the third phase of trauma therapy called integration.

You describe it exactly as I experience it. Confusion is one of my emotion as well, finally feeling my own impulses and life energy. Communication/connection is what I have most withdrawn from in life, but now I feel totally different when communicating, there are so many emotions I feel. I cry any moment like a teenager, as my therapist nicely indicated, then alternate with laughing, it is a rollercoaster! I had closed off everything to the world I see now. It does come with hard bumps, as past and new life are integrated, and it is really confusing to me, but with the long suppressed energy being freed up, it does feel so much better already, like entering a new world.

I so agree with you to keep hope for everyone here! It can be done and after 25 years of many therapies, It proved to be true what I always thought. Thank you for posting this :) I was thinking of posting myself to see who else experienced this and also to give hope. Good for you that you could change your profile picture :tup: Great work!

 

[bright future28]

Aw thanks for your lovely reply im so happy that you are experiencing this also :) wish you all the best and I would say if it would help you to write it down go for it. I found it really empowering. Sending hugs x

 

[Born to Run]

Thank you :) I think I will write a bit later, when less confused :wacky:

Sending back hugs :hug: