Possible Triggers To Unknown Or Current Trauma? Help!

[Padfield]

I have realized that certain objects, things, or places make me feel uneasy. Even certain "types" of people. They cause me to feel anxious. Feel irritable. Nauseous kind of. But most importantly they make me feel depressed somehow. These things include streetlights (but only ones with light of orange color, not white color) 80's rock/hair metal, being on the north side of Denver. And a few other things. Even thinking of these things make me feel this way. I've tried to figure out why these things cause me to feel this way. I've been trying to associate these things with trauma from my past. But I cannot. Has anyone ever had this happen? Is it possible I have trauma that I have embedded in my memory that I can't remember? Or am I just overthinking all of this?

 

[Mawyanne]

I have realized that certain objects, things, or places make me feel uneasy. Even certain "types" of people

Hi Padfield, I'm glad you brought this up because I have always had very similar feelings...in fact when you mentioned orange streetlights I eerily get a sort of dejavu feeling, almost as if everything is suddenly in slow motion & I actually hear the sound of dead silence. It's fearful yet strangely drawing to me. I get the same odd sensations when I see groups of 3 or more teenagers walking down the street and when I see a building site, not just any building site but a yellowy-orange color building under construction (possibly abandoned) tons of sandy dirt and especially closed in by grey concrete block walls. I sense uneasiness & a chilly air. Somehow I know instinctively that I witnessed something horrible but that's all.
I'll be curious to see what replies you get on this subject!

 

[Padfield]

I'm glad someone understands! Kind of lol. It has bothered me for quite some time. The lights at least. The best way to explain it is that I instantly associate orange colored street lights with negativity. Darkness. And those thoughts have turned into feelings and physical symptoms. It's hard to explain.

 

[EveHarrington]

I think it's possible that these things are related to past trauma. Speaking based on personal experience, I think it's also possible that these things just irritate you in some way but aren't directly related to trauma or even a past negative experience. I think that if it is related to trauma, you may figure it out as you heal. Sometimes memories surface as we heal. :hug:

 

[Padfield]

That's a good way to think of it! I won't be seeing my therapist for a while so I unfortunately cannot talk to a professional about it for a while. I'm a very positive, kind, and happy person. Nothing irritates me really. But these things do. Not to the point where I get angry though. But it's more that they cause me to be depressed.