Since I left my ex husband, I have been living in the relative safety of my dad's house (he lives in Colorado most of the year). I have been able to learn about myself, explore the PTSD, get help and just slowly relax from 22 years of being married to a jerk and all the years before that of abuse and neglect. My ex moved to Nashville, TN, and now both of my boys are living with me. My older son is in college but is home for the summer, and my younger son (still in high school) is also living with me (I am keeping my fingers crossed he doesn't decide to go to Nashville, because his dad treats both of the boys harshly). The problem is my boys fight constantly. My older son has a lot of anger that he is not in touch with. His is really hard on his brother and belittles him a lot. I get really angry at them and step in when necessary, but I find myself having a lot of anxiety. They got into it last night, and this morning I had a dream that I was beating the crap out of my mother, because she hit my younger son. When I woke up, I had an anxiety attack. I am now fighting depression today. I don't know what to do. My older son will not go to counseling, but my younger son goes. I basically threatened him earlier this year that he would have to find another place to live if he couldn't get along with his brother. It's like all the ugliness from my marriage has now found me again at my dad's house. I don't know what to do. I am very sad.
I have tried talking to my kids, but my mind goes blank, I feel like I say the wrong things and that they just get pissed that I'm lecturing them.
Spero
I have tried talking to my kids, but my mind goes blank, I feel like I say the wrong things and that they just get pissed that I'm lecturing them.
Spero
