Ptsd Emotional Numbing

[pi314159]

Good luck with the new (old) T. I think a good relationship is important :)

 

[ms spock]

I'll just think I'm learning. I'm currently learning to be fluent in Korean and Mandarin.

That is great! It is hard feeling non human.

 

[ms spock]

Hi, Ms Spock,

You are right. I was being hard on myself for this state...actually wondering if I had actually loved him.

I am glad you know you are being too hard on yourself. Of course you loved him! You can see that in the photo of how he was posing for you. If you didn't love him you wouldn't be in this turmoil and distress.

Please be kind to yourself, even for a few minutes a day, if possible. If you can't that is okay too.

 

[ms spock]

Hi, Ms Spock,
I saw a psychiatrist a few days ago and he put me on an anti-depressant. I kept telling my T about the despair and hopelessness but she didn't suggest meds. I should have been on these months ago. Maybe I am just imaging this, but I feel better already. I know the meds can't help me feel but I am not feeling agitated about not being able to feel. It makes me not care that I can't care, if that makes sense. I am actually able to function.

All our bodies work differently with different types of medication. It usually takes 6-8 weeks for me to have them kick in but I have seen other people get the effect much quicker.

I think that when we know we are going to get a break that that does help as well.

Take Care,
ox
ms spock

 

[ms spock]

Hi, Ms Spock,

How amazing our minds are!

Indeed. Being intelligent you will have a tendency to over analyse ( many people, including myself do that). Totally talking in terms of theory here but letting something be what it is - well it is a concept to consider.

You are how you are and that is what it is. You don't have to be in any way particular. You have suffered a major blow of losing your beloved companion. All of us do grief differently. There is no wrong or right way of doing it.

ox
ms spock

 

[Frankie111]

Hi Char, sorry to hear all that you have been through.

I was just wondering what other signs of PTSD you have other than emotional numbing? Have you been diagnosed with PTSD?

I am suffering with emotional numbing and have been for 4 months now. It is horrendous isn't it? I hate it.

However, I don't have any other symptoms of PTSD as far as I can see (insomnia most nights though unless I take meds) and therefore haven't been officially diagnosed with it.

But to be emotioanlly numb, even towards my young children is something that I am struggling deeply with.

I just want to feel the way I used to do, I was such an emotional, caring, loving person and now I am just existing, nothing else, just existing...I want to feel that deep feeling of unconditional love for my children instead of just acting it.

 

[amethist]

Frankie, again you are asking for members to describe how they suffer, this is not fair on them at all.

You state again the only symptom you have is "Emotional Numbing", no other symptom of PTSD what so ever.

Maybe it is now time you actually stood back and took stock of what you are doing, which is trying to fit yourself into the PTSD diagnosis, when clearly you can't.

So please go speak to some one face to face and be totally honest with them. You cannot keep doing this to yourself or anyone else.

Amethist

 

[Frankie111]

Amethist I am not at all asking char how else she suffers just whether or not she has any other symptoms as her opening paragraph clearly states she is suffering PTSD by presenting with emotional numbness. For your information I am now on the NHS waiting list for CBT, which as you know takes time. I don't know why you seem to have it in for me so much. I am going through the worst experience of my life and I can't see how me asking other members how they deal with this feeling of emotional numbness has to offend you at all. If I have offended Char in any way by asking her if she has other symptoms of PTSD then I am sorry to Char. But you don't seem to care that you are offending and upsetting me by constantly responding to every post I make. Just because I do not tick every single box on the PTSD criteria list does not mean I am not suffering from it. I have witnessed traumas, I have suffered insomnia over the last four months, I feel totally unconnected to everyone around me and feel completely numb.

 

[soulofLC]

I haven't had a drink in over 8 years and I have really REALLY been thinking of starting again through all of this. I have also thought about just checking out. After all, I let Pallino go when there was no quality left for him. I just don't think I can ever love like that again. It was such a special bond. I do not have kids. He was my child.

I understand that you feel you need to drink. I have been fighting the same demon; but if I drink when I am sad, I drink too much and then feel worse. Try to do as much self care as possible instead. You are feeling pain, and that is a normal part of the process. Glad the meds are taking the edge off for you. They say there is no magic pill, but I beg to differ! Well, to a point...

I really relate to your suffering; my screen name, soulofLC is after my soul mate, LC the cat. I think animals have souls, and I still think about how much joy he brought to my life, how much love, even after 13 years. I still miss him, and still keep his tags and favorite toys. Hang in there ((Hugs)). I hope one day you can also recover from this loss. I know, cause losing LC was traumatic enough to get me in a bad relationship cause I was so lonely without him!! Your therapist was wrong to say that, but sometimes they hear so much that they too become numb. If your old T is working for you, that is good. Calling out your therapist on something they said is a skill I have had to learn over many many years of therapy!!!

 

[catjudo]

Just because I do not tick every single box on the PTSD criteria list does not mean I am not suffering from it.

Actually, the fact that you do not have at least some symptoms in each category of PTSD diagnostic criteria does mean that you don't have PTSD. The fact that you've had, by your own report, several doctors tell you that you don't have PTSD but do have depression and anxiety...that means you don't have PTSD.

This forum is for people who have PTSD or for others who support/care for someone with PTSD. I think you would be better served, Frankie111, by finding a forum or support group for depression and anxiety. Then, perhaps, you would see that your symptoms do very much fit with the diagnosis you've been given.

Stop hijacking other people's threads to bring them back around to your own agenda. Stop asking the same question over and over again. People have given you answers. You haven't liked them. There is nothing to be gained by asking the same thing over and over again.

 

[Joose]

Hi there

I just wanted to let you know that I am in a very similar situation. I feel nothing following a very traumatic psychosis. I find daily life very difficult and am nothing like I used to be. I have been like this for 2 years now and hope is a very difficult thing to hold on to. It's a terrible thing to be experiencing.