So glad I found this site. I have therapists, I have family, I have doctors, I have case workers...the list goes on and on. The only thing I don't have is a support group of fellow PTSD'ers. I very much need people to talk to.
I am tired of being sad, I am tired of being afraid, I am tired of being angry, and mostly I am tired of having to do it all by myself. Everybody around me is trying to fix me, which is fine but who says I am broken? I have had severe trauma's in my life, and this is my body and mind's way of coping with it. Now I just have to heal the poor coping mechanisms and replace them with good coping mechanisms.
Who am I? Well I could give you facts, figures, data. I could describe my history, my genetics, my work, my traumas (of which there are many)...but .they all just seem kinda flat.
I am a 3-D being in a 3-D reality, with an NDE experience of being out of this world. There I was a being of energy and light in a world of energy and light.
In this 3-D reality I am female, age 37,no children. Business owner, partner, friend, beloved, daughter, sister, family member, cancer survivor, childhood survivor, abuse survivor.
I knit, crochet, sew, write, watch movies, do yoga, meditate, pray, work out at the gym. I am very stubborn, I do these things even when I don't feel like it.
I am creative, passionate, wild, playful, quiet, reserved, invisible (I have all of these emotions and more and when I get triggered sometimes they run the gamet in a single hour.)
I am a woman, I am a child. I love to sing, and create and discover. When I am going through depression I don't love to do anything.
But even when I am down I would love to get to know you. Who knows maybe we can figure out who we are together.
I am tired of being sad, I am tired of being afraid, I am tired of being angry, and mostly I am tired of having to do it all by myself. Everybody around me is trying to fix me, which is fine but who says I am broken? I have had severe trauma's in my life, and this is my body and mind's way of coping with it. Now I just have to heal the poor coping mechanisms and replace them with good coping mechanisms.
Who am I? Well I could give you facts, figures, data. I could describe my history, my genetics, my work, my traumas (of which there are many)...but .they all just seem kinda flat.
I am a 3-D being in a 3-D reality, with an NDE experience of being out of this world. There I was a being of energy and light in a world of energy and light.
In this 3-D reality I am female, age 37,no children. Business owner, partner, friend, beloved, daughter, sister, family member, cancer survivor, childhood survivor, abuse survivor.
I knit, crochet, sew, write, watch movies, do yoga, meditate, pray, work out at the gym. I am very stubborn, I do these things even when I don't feel like it.
I am creative, passionate, wild, playful, quiet, reserved, invisible (I have all of these emotions and more and when I get triggered sometimes they run the gamet in a single hour.)
I am a woman, I am a child. I love to sing, and create and discover. When I am going through depression I don't love to do anything.
But even when I am down I would love to get to know you. Who knows maybe we can figure out who we are together.
