Sufferer Ptsd. I'm Never Safe

[tarheel76]

I'm new and just stumbled upon this site. I suffered every type of abuse during childhood and never had a "safe place." I have never felt safe or comfortable anywhere and have lived this way for 40+ years. I long for a day when I can exhale, feel safe and not be alone.

 

[mrsps]

Hi and welcome :)
I hope you can feel safe here, we are a great bunch and understand a lot of your pain and what you have gone through

 

[dougyhowzer]

You're definitely in a safe place to share your experiences .
As mrsps said , we have a good community , and we do our best to be compassionate and help one another as best we can .

 

[intothelight]

@tarheel76 Welcome to the forum!

I can relate to what you are saying about feeling safe and I had to learn to be safe from the inside out. I hope you find this site and the support here beneficial to your healing.

 

[Bees Are Awesome]

Hello and welcome!
I hope you find that this site is a safe place for you. I have found the forum to be supportive and helpful.

 

[Namenotdiagnosis]

Hi and welcome x you will definitely feel safe here, I can relate to the not feeling safe I spend a lot of time looking over my shoulder x the forum is great for support and even though I don't know the people on the forum u feel like it's my extended family and that makes me feel really safe . Have you tried EFT it's emotional freedom technique and it's free on you tube , I use it a lot even in meetings and no one is non the wiser , it helps with anxiety in fact with lots of things , just another avenue for you x good luck x

 

[Ivan the Elder]

I am new here too so I can't exactly welcome you but this seems to be a very safe place. I know exactly what you mean as for the abuse. I still have a very clear memory of my father breaking my shoulder when I was just 2 years old and many other "events" since then. I was finally able to leave home permanently when I was 16 because the cops would no longer pick you up and return you. I am now 65 and have most likely had very low level PTSD all my life. Then, a few months ago it got blown up to maximum and now I am having to deal with the safe issue constantly. My wife left me and I am now living in an apartment where every little noise I hear makes me uneasy. It is especially bad because I am now living alone for the first time in my life, day after day, month after month. I sit where I can always see out the window to see who is coming into the building.

I really do not like this but I do not know how to deal with this. I wish I could give you some advice but on this I am very much in the dark except I always leave some lights on at night.