Sufferer Ptsd & Raging

[Mamalphrus]

So the anger and raging - has me well....angry. I feel so frustrated and worthless when I lose the false sense of control. My brain snaps and then boom the tiniest little thing sets me off. Then I have the internal battle, so do I go and take some anxiety medication or do I hope this anger spell will be short and non-traumatic to those around me. This is a daily struggle. Those around me deserve no anger, they are wonderful humans that are flawed like everybody else yet suddenly I become their tormentor. Even if it is just a short spell, I'm still their tormentor. So now faced again, pill or try and control the rage as best as possible. For now, I've removed myself from others to ponder....

 

[Namenotdiagnosis]

I can totally relate, I'm totally consumed with anger and rage too, I get a bee in my bonnet and just don't know when to stop , I nearly lost my job because of it!!! I try soooo hard not to vent my anger at my luv ones but it seems the more I try the worse I become x

 

[Namenotdiagnosis]

And I hate it!!!! I hate the person it makes me coz I feel like an abuser but I'm not coz u couldn't hurt my enemy! I battle with it everyday , u had 12 sessions if emdr to help me with my flashbacks and trauma and it appears anger seems to have surfaced , it just feels like i get over one obstacle to face another nd my journey seems to be gettinginger and harder .

 

[Mamalphrus]

I'm sorry that you can relate. It's a tough road & staying positive/removing yourself seems to be all that works. Meds just mask. Mediation helps get to the core of the issue.

 

[Namenotdiagnosis]

I'm sorry where it says u is meant to b I and gingeris meant to be longer,
last time I was on meds was abt 15 years ago as I really didn't like the way they made me feel and in some way I felt like the psychiatrist was controlling my choice by giving them to me and I hated that. I used alternative therapys, looked at foods that were good to keep my mental health stable, joined martial arts to vent my anger, and took up running, all that , two young boys at the time a full time job kept me busy enough to block out my traumas .
15 years later early menopause hormones in over drive made my flashbacks r active and my goodness am I suffering ? Toooo much !!!! Medication ? Not as yet but an certainly edging that way, n e ting to be honest to make me feel ME again

 

[intothelight]

@Mamalphrus Welcome to the forum!

I think as you read, you will find that anger is a common symptom of PTSD. I know that for myself when the stress levels hit a certain level and I felt that "things were out of control" my "fight" would kick in and unfortunately, the "thing" that was fueling the fight had little to do with where the anger was directed. (Hope that awkward sentence made sense.) For myself, I found that my own anger was really fear, disappointment, frustration, etc. and when I learned to experience the other emotions the anger lessened. I also learned that the ONLY control I have is over my own actions, perceptions, and choices. It helped to learn to give up control I never had and to focus on the control that I do have.

There are a lot of great articles and posts here. I hope you find the information and support beneficial to your own healing.