Pushing Myself; Too Much Or Not Enough?

[Muzikluvr]

Remember the positives. Celebrate them no matter how small. They really are the best defense against negative thoughts that may crop up more often when you're more stressed.

 

[mamachick]

I just re-read my lengthy post. It is not what I intended. My point was, I now would have difficulty with 2 classes. I definately could not do 3. I am considering taking one class. I have little other responsibility at the time, but the little that I have seems to be overwhelming.

So I was suggesting reflecting on not only what other responsibility that you have but what your perspective of it is. Secondly, you mentioned that you were able to get all A's before, so I am guessing that this is important. Will you feel bad if you do not get all A's? Please know there is no judgement in grades, Im ok with a B and even a C in stats or chemistry, but one of my best friends never got less than A.

I think that your talking about it is a good indicator that you will weigh it out well and have that first week to drop after requirements are announced. I applaud you for doing this. You are on your journey and moving forward whatever you do.

 

[Deleted member 1860]

I have no other commitments other than therapy and school----no family, no friends, no job. It's just school and therapy.

 

[Deleted member 1860]

Well therapy was a bust. I wanted to talk about my struggles and all she wanted to say was "I don't agree with you not wanting to do neurofeedback" and "you need to take supplements". A whole hour of hearing about stupid supplements when I wanted to discuss what's bothering me. She said "you need to take your supplements so things don't get so bad that you're suicidal". I didn't say anything but I was thinking "too late; I'm already there". I just want someone to listen, not push crap on me!

I still don't know what to do about school. Maybe I just need to accept that where I am is going to have to be good enough. What a depressing thought, but I don't feel I have any other choice.

 

[mamachick]

Solara-I'm sorry that you are not finding any relief.

I have to say, my therapist allows me to direct much of the time. I have wondered if it would not be better if she was more structured, but I don't think so. We really work on whatever is surfacing-client directed I guess.

I'm sorry you did not get to talk about what is bothering you. I hope you have another appointment soon and that you can.

 

[Deleted member 1860]

I cancelled my appointment for tomorrow. She doesn't understand that therapy can make me worse and I don't want to risk feeling crappy on the first day of classes.

I'm not sure if this is going to be a good fit? I went to her for neurofeedback but now I'm jumping off the neurofeedback wagon and she doesn't agree with it. She still thinks its impossible to have side effects because its "so gentle" to which I say bull.