Putting Myself In Uncomfortable Places...

[mommyofomh]

Ok so Im doing everything Im supposed to be doing to get better according to drs. Meds, emdr therapy, meditation, put my business on hold. Im trying to get back to a sense of normalcy. I have been putting myself in situations that would normally trigger me and doing somewhat ok. It is helping. Scary but I just tell myself 5 more minutes until its over. Sometimes makes me stuck in the werird foggy place for hours after but I am able to bring myself back.

Whatever it was that used to cause a full on panic attack is getting better. I feel a sense of accomplishment. I took my daughters to a birthday party yesterday at peter piper. I have bad social anxiety and dont do well in crowds and go frozen. I freaked a little but kept functioning.

My mother in law is diabetic and got hurt, shes staying with us, I got a needle for her, I actually touched it and was going to help her inject it. My own mother was a junkie and overdosed multiple times, anytime I see one of those needles with the orange tops put me in a full on flashback.

Point of my story is this. It is a struggle every day. But every time I do one of these things It hurts a little less. The confidence I gain helps get me through. I am not recommending this but just thought it may help someone else..

 

[Sazza]

Fab work mommyofomh, its not easy to push ourselves into uncomfortable situations, especially situations that we know have in the past triggered us into panic. You have broke through that barrier of not letting the fear and anxiety you feel take over, little by little you are gaining control - that takes alot of courage so be proud of yourself for the progress you are making.

As you continuing to expose yourself hopefully things will continuing to get better for you. There will no doubt be bad days where the fear takes over, at those times remember your progress and that you can do it even if it feels uncomfortable, step by step. I think your tactic of telling yourself only 5 more minutes is a good one, when we break the time down in our heads of how long left before we can back to our comfort zone i think it really helps.

Be proud of yourself !!!

 

[mommyofomh]

Thank you, that means alot to me. I never thought it would work. DefiNitely scary but it gets less scary. Thanks for the support.